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This Is Not For You, perhaps Rule's most self-consciously literary and philosophical novel, tells the story of a young woman in the late 1950s and early 1960s as she negotiates her lesbian sexuality. This epistolary lament -- an unsent letter to a lover who was never quite a lover -- vividly depicts New York and London and a group of friends as they search, sometimes in vaThis Is Not For You, perhaps Rule's most self-consciously literary and philosophical novel, tells the story of a young woman in the late 1950s and early 1960s as she negotiates her lesbian sexuality. This epistolary lament -- an unsent letter to a lover who was never quite a lover -- vividly depicts New York and London and a group of friends as they search, sometimes in vain, for a sustaining love in a time of strict societal constraints....

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ISBN : 9781894663847
Format Type : Paperback
Number of Pages : 304 Pages
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This Is Not For You Reviews

  • Liza
    2019-02-08 05:10

    Things I love about this book include the cover, the title, and the fact that I got it at the Lesbian Herstory Archives book sale. It is hard for me to read it without imagining it being spoken in a Very Serious monotone.

  • Sofia Antonia Milone
    2019-02-10 01:44

    This is a wonderfully written book; intelligent, philosophical, and in great literary style. I love writers who can depict so much through dialogue alone, and who can jump so seamlessly through time without giving you whiplash.But frankly, I hated the ending. I hated the ending, at the beginning. I hated knowing how dissatisfied I was going to be. I hated the fact I wanted to slap the narrator into being.This is a painful book. I don't remember a jot of happiness, in a world that ought to have been brimming with it.And yet I read it. And some how loved it - possibly because at every opportunity I wrote in scenes of possibility, and laughter and intimacy and candour and vulnerability where there had been none.I'm not sure if the book would work with the one scene we all need in it, but I've a feeling it would.

  • Evan
    2019-02-04 04:02

    This book made me feel smarter than I am. Which is to say that engaged me intellectually. The narrator has a real dry, detached way about her, that was both comforting and frustrating to me as a reader. A just the facts type telling. There was no way to get emotionally involved. If this was on purpose, to know the narrator, then this book is really brilliant. A character revealed by the way she remembers and recounts the past. Because I'm not sure if this is intended or just a weakness in storytelling by the author, I've rated it three stars. I suppose I don't trust Kate and/or I don't trust the author. I think it's the former really. The story is told as a long letter, written by Kate to Esther. Sometimes it slips into just telling a story. Conversations she had with other people recalled with an accuracy that to me would be impossible. I couldn't quite place the time of the book. The 50's, the 70's. Looking back to a time in the 50's, 70's. It seems to be that Kate saved Esther by not loving her. Esther by the end of the book has dedicated her life to God and joined an order. She is the only one of her friends and family to believe in doing this. Her brother thinks she is selfish, turning her back on the world and her family and friends. Life itself. Personally, I have felt like doing the same thing. I would be much happier. Truly happy and I know it. Communion with God and to be surrounded by people who are as devout as you would be great. Praying for the world, giving up all (most) material goods. Some people see this as martyrdom. I just had the thought that someone who has this calling but also thinks that the world needs her participation, her contribution to somehow improve things in the world could also be looked at as a martyr. Sacrificing the personal dream for the benefit of others (the many). Anyway, Kate, the narrator, is a lesbian. She doesn't really get involved with people though. She has a few experiences in the book. Not detailed at all. They come out of nowhere and are just explained in a sentence. "We went to bed. There was no sequel." Most of her encounters are one night only things. She just can't bring herself to care or think those encounters are important. At one point she is involved with her boss, who is married, and she's not in love with her at all. Later in the book she lives with a straight older woman, Grace, who she loves and who loves her but Grace is really only in love with her work. Kate, from the time she met Esther, when she was 18 and Esther was 19, has been in love with her and Esther in love with her but Kate, I guess feels that she has to protect Esther from herself. I don't know if that's it. Esther ends up living her life in a very calculated way. She has plans and ideas about the way things should go as far as experiencing relationships and developing as a person. She has an affair, she steals things, shoe's, money from the collection plate, she gets involved with someone who is involved with drugs, at another point she is temporarily involved with a married man. She gets married to someone who is surprisingly like Kate. When she realizes her efforts at consumating sp? the marriage will never succeed, she is advised by her pastor to get an annulment. Her fascination with God and religion are evident from the beginning. The only thing that could have prevented her from joining the order, which she does when she is 27 or so, would've been if Kate had just loved her, told her, shown her, instead of keeping her at arm's length. I feel that Kate treated her badly. I have to concede that Kate knows herself well enough though to understand why she shouldn't get involved with Esther on that level. That reason is never fully conveyed to the reader though. Kate is someone I couldn't really like. I think love, when felt, should be expressed and experienced. Not necessarily sexually but at least it should be acknowledged. I am thinking about rating this four stars because of it's complexity. I've never read anything quite like this.

  • Dide
    2019-02-03 09:07

    I like the dialogues the depiction of characters and their quirks. Other than "said" used more than I can condone, it was an enjoyable read. I dislike kate though...I kept asking why was she so afraid to at least attempt once to embrace her love.'s sad and as much as I feel everyone is their own life determiners, I do feel Kate's lack of action caused E's unhappy life.....E knew but she too was afraid of the possible rejection and so lived a life looking for that thing she already found in Kate but which kate won't act's sad...they both consummated with other people but never with themselves.

  • Jan
    2019-02-06 02:47

    Vaguely remember really liking this character driven book of self-discovery.

  • Gaije
    2019-01-30 00:50

    I just loved this book so much. It's beautiful and heart breaking and true. Every time I read it, I just love it more.

  • Elaine May
    2019-01-26 05:42

    My favorite book of all time. Kate and Esther are still in my head. I don't want them to leave ever

  • Joanna
    2019-02-11 08:50

    That everyone makes different choices. My favorite book of all time.

  • Emmi
    2019-01-23 00:50

    Very painful story; beautifully written.

  • Elsie
    2019-02-05 07:46

    beautifully written and heart breaking

  • Karen
    2019-02-05 03:12

    I love this book, although it makes me sad. It's beautifully written, and I really like and feel for Kate. I could keep analyzing these characters for a long time.