As a child, Gaynor had many roles to play - parent to her baby brother, rescuer to her beaten mother and most of all, keeper of the family secrets. She witnessed and experienced things and age 13 she took her first sip of whiskey and thought she'd found sanctuary. She grew up fast and was soon bunking school and spending all her time in pubs, being bought drinks by unsavioAs a child, Gaynor had many roles to play - parent to her baby brother, rescuer to her beaten mother and most of all, keeper of the family secrets. She witnessed and experienced things and age 13 she took her first sip of whiskey and thought she'd found sanctuary. She grew up fast and was soon bunking school and spending all her time in pubs, being bought drinks by unsavioury men.Gaynor's story illustrates how easy it is to find yourself out of control. Small slippery steps got her into horrific situations involving, abusive men, drink and drug addiction, prostitution, self harm and serious mental illness, which stripped her of the ability to love herself or even her daughter.Having endured more than humanly possible and being a victim of her own destructive behaviour for so long, Gaynor finally managed to take steps to overcome her demons for good. One Little Speck is the remarkable story of her journey from hopeless rock bottom to recovery.Gaynor is now a qualified counsellor and hopes to help others in the future to overcome their addictions. She lives in Essex with her partner and is a proud mum to her law-graduate daughter....
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This is a amazing story. One Little Speck is the story of Gaynor Goodchild's life and her struggles and in the end her salvation. It's a inspiring and beautifully written, definitely a story worth being told.
“One Little Speck” by Gaynor GoodchildReviewed by Sherry SchultzThis is a marvelous book, but it is not easy to read. Gaynor has written a powerful memoir, but its very genuineness makes it hard to believe that any one human being could withstand the horrors that made up her life. Born into a family where both parents were alcoholic, she became the family caretaker and lost her childhood in the process. Her parents parted ways when she was 13, and when her mother took up with a much younger man, Gaynor could not tolerate the pain and finished off one of her Mum’s bottles. Alcohol quickly became her best friend but in later years she went on to valium and later heroin. Besides being codependent, alcoholic, and drug dependent, Gaynor was addicted to problematic relationships. She was married and had a child in her teens, and experienced many abusive relationships. Even after finding AA, her deep emotional traumas prevented her from having any lasting recovery until she finally experienced a spiritual awakening. Despite its darkness at times, it is very real and worth reading.
This book is a truly in depth, honest account of Gaynor's life, her addiction to alcohol, then drugs and perhaps the addiction that caused her the most pain and upset in her life her addiction to men. Gaynor seems to attract the wrong sort of men who feed her addiciton rather than help her rid herself of the addictions she has. She started out as a young child seeing her parents consume large amounts of alcohol and the violence that ensued between them afterwards, so it became "acceptable" or "normal" behaviour. So that when Gaynor had her own relationships she seemed to accept the violence towards her. Gaynor tries many times to leave her addictions behind her but time and time again she keeps being dragged back into the drinking, even her own family offer her drinks etc when she is attending Alcoholics Annonymous. Gaynor has her own daughter whom she brings up alone. The love that shines out from the book is the love Gaynor always has for her daughter. Gaynor and her daughter move around a lot trying to escape the people that drag her back into drink and drugs and abusive relationships. Gaynor often wonders if her life style will affect her daughter,but, as you read the book you will see that both Gaynor and her daughter are successful women with good careers now. I think it was extremely brave of Gaynor to tell her story with nothing held back. As someone who has seen and lived life with Domestic Violence it is a difficult subject to talk about alone, yet Gaynor manages to speak about that as well as her added addictions of alcohol and drugs.
You wont believe what this woman has been through. It's a shocking story and parts of it will have you marvelling at just how these things can happen to an ordinary woman, and how she can survive. Gaynor has shown an enormous amount of courage and is an inspiration to all women everywhere.
If I am being totally honest, I wouldn’t normally read this sort of book. Instead of reading harrowing tales of people and their battles with real life, I tend to prefer escaping reality into the world of fiction. However, when the author contacted me and asked whether I would like to read it, I said yes. After all this is a woman who has battled against many things and has had the courage to not only live through them, but write about her experience. The least I could do was take the time to read her account.The book itself is relatively short compared to the normal fiction books I read (just under 150 pages), but the content is more important sometimes that the size of a book and in this case the content is what makes it. The book starts out with Gaynor at a very young age and throughout the book we follow her to the end of her journey to the point she has now reached in her life.The writing itself is very frank and honest and this drew me in from the very beginning. Her parents were the starting point for Gaynor’s early memories of violence and alcohol. She takes us through her school years and into young adulthood and along the way we see the different parts of her life that are affected.I must say that this makes for compelling reading and I think that many people can empathise with at least on of the issues Gaynor faced in her life, whether it be addiction, abuse or violence of some form. The most horrific part for me is that Gaynor herself had to battle not just one of these things but all of them at some point in her life.She has written this book to emphasise to people that there is a light at the end of the tunnel n o matter how bad things seem. She is a true testament to what can be achieved as she is now a qualified counsellor who hopes to help others overcome their addictions.I thought the book was a remarkable story and was done extremely well. Gaynor is not one to point the finger and her account of her life is very factual and in some cases pointing out her own faults too, which I can’t imagine would be easy. I can only say that although this wasn’t my usual sort of book I loved reading it and can only hope that Gaynor carries on and gets her message across to other people. She seems like a very honest and strong woman to get where she is today and I wish her all the luck in the world.
The autobiography of Gaynor listing one disastrous relationship after another brings some sympathy and awe at the kind of life one can be dragged into with the help of addictions and other people. Gaynor is truthful and to the point but I half way through the story I began to lose interest as her repetitive behaviour, returning time and again to drink, drugs and possessive, violent boyfriends became a chore to read. There was no real depth into each encounter - how the life she led affected her daughter for example. I'm also in awe at how her daughter continued to be in her care after so many breakdowns, time spent in hospital/seeking medical attention etc. The lesson from the story is clear; addiction is horrible and is very difficult to break, especially without support.Overall the story was boring and repetitive. I hope Gaynor found it therapeutic to write.