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John Wayne Cleaver é um rapaz perigoso – muito perigoso. E passou a vida a tentar não cumprir o seu potencial.É bem-comportado, calado, tímido e reservado, mas incapaz de sentir empatia e de compreender as pessoas que o rodeiam. Prefere conviver com os mortos; o seu trabalho (e passatempo favorito) é embalsamar cadáveres na casa mortuária que pertence à família. Além dissoJohn Wayne Cleaver é um rapaz perigoso – muito perigoso. E passou a vida a tentar não cumprir o seu potencial.É bem-comportado, calado, tímido e reservado, mas incapaz de sentir empatia e de compreender as pessoas que o rodeiam. Prefere conviver com os mortos; o seu trabalho (e passatempo favorito) é embalsamar cadáveres na casa mortuária que pertence à família. Além disso,partilha o nome com um famoso serial killer e tem uma obsessão quase incontrolável por psicopatas e assassinos em série. Sob estas circunstâncias, parece que o seu destino está traçado.Contudo, Cleaver tem consciência das suas invulgares características, e quer a todo o custo impedir-se a si mesmo de matar. Para tal, criou um conjunto de regras muito precisas: tenta cultivar apenas pensamentos positivos pelas pessoas que o rodeiam (até pelo bully doliceu), evita criar laços ou interessar-se por elas (tem apenas um amigo da sua idade) e, sobretudo, tenta a todo o custo manter-se afastado do fogo (que gosta de atear), dos animais (que gosta de dissecar) e de locais e vítimas de crimes. As suas regras vão ser postas à prova quando é encontrado um corpo terrivelmente mutilado – e depois um segundo, e um terceiro. Será que na sua pacata vila existe uma criatura ainda mais perigosa do que John Wayne Cleaver?...

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Não Sou Um Serial Killer Reviews

  • Stephen
    2019-01-26 03:24

    My reaction when a third of the way through the book “IT” happened was something like…For those of you that have read the book, you know EXACTLY what I am talking about. For everyone else, let me explain as best I can without any spoilers. Our story begins in a small town with a wonderful introduction to John Wayne Cleaver. John is 15 years old boy who is obsessed with serial killers. This obsession is the result of he himself having many of the traits and characteristics of a serial killer and struggling desperately against his inner “urges.” John has decided that by learning how these people act and what drives them, he can determine what actions to avoid in order to keep from killing anyone...Sounds pretty sensible to me, but then again I've never killed anyone....well, except for food and that doesn't count. Uh...sorry about that, just kidding..heh...heh...Anyway, to help John in his quest not to commit heinous butchery, he has developed strict rules that he follows in order to try and be (or at least appear) normal. For example, if someone makes John angry he will compliment them. If he finds himself observing someone, even unintentionally, he will make himself avoid that person for one week to avoid “stalking” them. These were very interesting and this part of the book was excellent. Now, for those of you that read or watch Dexter, comparisons to that series are both accurate and appropriate. Apart from their age, the only significant difference between the characters is that John has not yet killed. Apart from that the similarities are certainly there. They both have “routines” they follow to be normal. They both “work” around dead bodies (Dexter is a blood-splatter analyst while John’s family are the local morticians) and they both struggle with “their inner monster.” Regardless, I was absolutely loving the book as John (like Dexter) is a fascinating character and the descriptions of his daily routines and his struggle against his inner monster were very well done. In addition to learning about John, the central plot of the book involves the discovery that an actual serial killer is on the loose in John’s small town. It seems that some madman is killing older men and stealing parts of their body. Of course, John is fascinated and begins trying to figure out who the killer is and how he is selecting his victims. ......Okay, let's just pause and take a moment to appreciate how we got to this point because the road is gonna get pretty rough ahead....Ready to continue....Okay, so up to this point, everything about the book was excellent. As I finished the first 100 pages my rating was sitting in high 4 star and maybe even 5 star territory and I was just as happy as I could be....AND THEN...ON PAGE 121...EVERYTHING CHANGED....BECAUSE....IT HAPPENED…and the book completely:This was a complete FULL STOP,WTF just happened moment for me that left me stunned and bewildered. It was like the “infamous” end of the movie The Crying Game, except that while that was shocking and excellent...this was just shocking and painful. Very, very painful... Well, neither I nor the book ever really recovered from IT. IT kinda took the wind out of my sails. Now the rest of the book was not horrible and there were some interesting portions in the rest of the book. Unfortunately, after IT I was basically disengaged from the narrative. I just felt….empty…So, overall the book was good but it could have been great if IT had not happened. Unfortunately, IT did happen and when IT happened, IT kinda ruined it for me…Oh well shIT happens!!!P.S. For those of you who have requested to know what IT is, here you go...(view spoiler)[ The serial killer loose in the town turns out to be a DEMON which comes completely out of left field since the book was reading like a straight YA crime thriller (hide spoiler)]["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>

  • Dan Wells
    2019-02-04 05:36

    Quite possibly the best book ever written.

  • Miranda Reads
    2019-02-22 04:23

    What if a serial killer...doesn't want to become a murderer?John Wayne Cleaver knows he has all the hallmarks of a serial killer - he likes to stalk people, hurt animals and fantasizes about killing friends and family. BUT before you turn away John is doing his absolute best to curb all killer-instincts AND he has a great family to support him. It's a crazy-good mixture of familial love and homicidal urges wrapped up in one book. Fear is a ... it's a weird thing, when you think about it. People are only afraid of other things, they're never afraid of themselves. John is afraid of himself - or at least he's afraid of what he could become. So, he's created a set of rules avoid any situation or thought that could encourage those traits. If he notices himself following someone, he will not look at them for a week. If he wants to hurt someone, he has to say something nice. He has rules to help him cope and manages quite well(ish) to pass for a normal kid.Yet, if another serial killer comes to town...what would be safer? Following his rules or allowing himself to indulge his killer tendencies and hunt down a murderer? There is a fabulous twist that brings the term "serial killer" into a whole new light.And to top it all, there's a cute girl at school and his mom is trying to hook them up. He doesn't know what's worse, that it's his mom whose facilitating this girl's interaction with a potential serial killer or the fact that he likes her back.

  • Flannery
    2019-02-17 01:34

    John Wayne Cleaver lives in a mortuary. But before you go thinking this is all fun and games like My Girl (well, at least before Thomas J and the bees), you should know that John Wayne is a killer. Well, at least he thinks he is. As a teenager, his internal monster makes life considerably harder, especially because John feels no connection to his peers and little to no emotion. I Am Not A Serial Killer follows John as he deals with having a serial killer in his town--Will being so close to an actual killer cause John to lose control of his own monster? At times, Dan Wells' debut novel seems a bit too juvenile. Anyone who knows my reading habits knows how much young adult literature I read. My expectations of this work were that I was going to be reading Dexter Lite. In actuality, this book had very little gore and it read like someone did research on serial killers, found out about the Macdonald Triad and then just wrote a book about it. I don't meant that to sound harsh but I honestly feel that it could've been so much better. John is in high school but it felt like a middle reader book. (as much as a book about serial killers can)In terms of the storyline, I was trucking along until page 103, when a total WTF moment pops up. Without spoilers, I'll just say that I thought I was reading a book about a serial killer in reality. Turns out, I was reading a book with a supernatural/paranormal element. Major buzzkill. There were just too many "no way" type moments for me in this story--the one that kept popping up (much to my dismay) was the fact that John simultaneously shovels snow several times a week yet also bikes everywhere (even to a lake outside town). If there is enough snow to be shoveling more than once a week, you are not bicycling. Especially in a small town where there is less traffic to melt the snow on the roads. (Yes, I know it is possible and some people enjoy biking in winter but I don't buy it here) [note: More "no way" moments below but with spoilers]There are tons of glowing reviews for this book on Goodreads, so maybe it is just me. And that's great. But this book is the first in a series of three--I will definitely not be reading any further. I see that a few of my friends on here gave up on this one and to them I say--Cheers on a choice well made:-) And to Linda, whom I still trust for recommendations, I was excited to read this one. You were right to recommend it. But I need more blood and guts in my killer novels! ****************SPOILER ALERT************Also, and this is a huge also, if a freaking demon has been killing people for decades, I'm pretty sure he'd catch on to a high school kid who keeps leaving notes for him. Someone that is used to stalking prey will not just go on with every day life (la-la-la) while someone is trying to expose them. Are you kidding me? They'd spy back and figure out who it is. A large part of me thinks the paranormal element might've been added in because the book is YA and, for some reason, either the publisher or the author felt like it would be too gruesome to have a regular human doing all the killing and body part snatching. To them, I say, yeah right. Have you read YA these days? Bring on the regular serial killers!

  • Kemper
    2019-02-13 01:13

    Ever since Hannibal Lector flirted with Clarice Starling by telling her about his favorite recipes, it seems like every other thriller features some kind of deranged but brilliant serial killer. It’s gotten beyond boring, but occasionally some writer will manage to come up with a fresh perspective on the genre. Jeff Lindsay’s Dexter series put a unique twist on the notion of the serial killer. (Or at least he did until he wrote the utterly crappy Dexter in the Dark.) Now Dan Wells is taking a new approach to the concept.John Wayne Cleaver is a teen-age boy who lives with his mother at the funeral home she runs with her twin sister. John has had a history of bed wetting, killing small animals and starting fires, and he’s very fond of helping prepare the dead bodies for funerals. He’s also obsessed with serial killers, and his reading about them has made him realize that he’s already showing all the classic signs of becoming one.John sets strict rules for himself to keep from becoming a killer, but he’s still considered an outcast and a freak by his classmates. He also has to see a therapist who he tells about his efforts to not engage in mass murder. However, when a string of grisly murders occur that terrify the town, John can barely contain his excitement that a serial killer is operating nearby. However, John will find out that this killer is worse than even his deranged mind can imagine.The first third of his book had me completely intrigued. I loved the notion of someone fighting against their own inclinations. John has so fully accepted the idea that he is a serial killer, that he never stops to question why he’d work so hard to avoid becoming one if he truly is a sociopath. However, the book takes a wild turn that I didn't really enjoy. Plus, I could never get entirely over the similarities to the Dexter series. It’s a quick read and the first in a planned trilogy. It was good enough I’ll check out the second volume, but I was far more interested in John’s psychology than the plot.

  • Jason Brown (Toastx2)
    2019-01-24 02:37

    I think my wife is a serial killer waiting to be unleashed on the world.I had not heard of this novel but ran across a Powell’s Books author reading late last month by Dan Wells. I read a summary of his recent book and then scheduled appropriately to go and listen to him. Jenn went with me and whispered creepy serial killer/mass murderer stats in my ear.. it was disturbing how much she knew.. When Dan asked people to name 5 killers in order to win a t-shirt, she stayed quiet and named 14 under her breath. no one but the Author could compete with her, naming less than five, 2 of which Wells had used as examples……please send the police after her FIRST if i ever drop off the radar (after she reads this, my stats will weigh against me.).. DO NOT enter our home, make sure to arrive with witnesses, and be careful if she offers you refreshments, it is a distraction tactic. Bring gelato if you plan on surviving..so, the long –> short of it is that i bought a copy of I AM NOT A SERIAL KILLER. Dan Wells scribbled his John Hancock into the cover and i went home.. I had some must reads already waiting that needed to be pushed through my brain machine before i could get to this.. How i waited nearly a month, i really do not know….. it was very, very good…John Wayne Cleaver is a 15 year old boy in a small town. Overall he is a nice kid who just can’t find any connection to the people around him. he has only one friend and is a freak among his peers. He grew up in a family of morticians. He helps out around the house and business. John is an outcast because he firmly believes he will grow up to be a serial killer.John does not WANT to be a serial killer, but he thinks that the universe has stacked the deck against him, starting with his name. His namesake is an actor who shares a name with a killer (c’mon pilgrim..). His father is Sam Cleaver, making him the Son of Sam. His last name is a tool for cutting meat.Interestingly enough, the town John lives in has a new killer hanging around, killing people and leaving their bodies lying about with parts missing. John obsessively investigates the killer, attempting to determine his motives and methodologies. This is in part because of his interest in the subject matter, and in part because of his fear of joining the ranks.. the more he knows, the better prepared he will be.This really was a great book. IANASK is a mild thriller, and a must read for anyone who has found themselves spending an afternoon reading through the Internet Crime Library or whiling away nights watching true crime shows on TV. Wells did a great job breaking down the mind of a killer and really leaves you mentally cheering for the 15 year old sociopath that is the main character. You know he could turn out to be a horrible person in a couple years, but hope for the best because really, his is just a great kid. classically misunderstood.The book is portioned well, focusing on John’s internal struggle as much as his obsessions with finding and stopping the local killer.It is a little gory in some spots, but not overly so.. of course, i could also be desensitized :).. ok, well, just assume that i am desensitized..One of my favorite aspects of John Cleaver is that he has already identified character traits of his that make him fear for his future. He has created a series of rules that will help himself suppress these character traits. These rules are mandatory to keep himself from crossing over, they keep his darker side in check.. ignoring these rules and he threatens to unleash his darkness, self named “Mr. Monster”Examples of his rules:- To keep stalker qualities subdued, he avoids people for a full week if he finds he is taking too much interest in them. too many conversations and he cuts off contact. if he finds himself following them home, they get back burner’d.- If he feels like doing bodily harm on someone, he should distract himself by being overly nice and saying nice things about them. Thinking and saying nice tings tends to push back the bad… you know the classic “Think Positive” motivational posters? He should have one tattooed on the back of his hand.- He must hand out with Max, another outcast in his grade. having max as a friend makes him more normal. after all, sociopaths do not have friends, so having a friend combats his sociopathy.The book is humorous and intense in all the right places.If you pick this book up, let me know what you thought of the Halloween Dance chapter. It cracked me up enough that i read sections aloud to people who were uncomfortable with a large insistent bearded man enthusiastically reading aloud a book titled ‘I am not a serial killer’… don’t get why that would make people feel “off” but it apparently does :)surprised that i still have a job considering the number of people who gave me uncomfortable looks on the elevator or in the break room.This was book one in a trilogy, i am very interested to see how the characters in this series turn out. Mr Wells, Get to releasing the books.. NOW! if you need someone to read them in advance, i would gladly volunteer :) (hint hint)

  • Chelsea ❤Peril Please❤
    2019-01-31 04:22

    You are evil, said myself. You are Mr. Monster. You are nothing. You are me.Well well well...what an odd slice of fun this was. Simplistic and understated, this book really doesn't try to be anything other than what it says it is, making for not only a fun, easy read, but a very touching one, as well. It's not easy to read about a diagnosed sociopath...well, at least not for the average person. For me? It felt more authentic and real. I became entwined and engrossed with this character in the early stages of the book, making it enjoyable from page one all the way until the end. And then there's that damn middle part that just...ugh...it was so...ah, fuck it-It made me laugh. Hard."So you have coincidental links to two serial killers," he said. "That's a little odd, I admit, but I'm still not seeing a cosmic conspiracy against you.""My last name is 'Cleaver,'" I said. "How many people do you know who are named after two serial killers and a murder weapon?"I mean seriously?? He really went there? You've got to be kidding me. And yet....is it odd that, in the end, I kind of loved where this went??? I can now see why some people didn't like the direction this novel took, but I actually, after my initial shock, LOVED IT! It took a bit, I'll admit, to get past the absurdity with which this was presented. But let me ask you this: For me, being the type of reader that I am, why wouldn't I love the fact that this little twist made it all the more perilous? Yeah, it was totally unbelievable. Yeah, it was an odd direction to go. And, yes, it will not be for everyone. But, for whatever reason, I decided I really liked it-Logic be damned.I think that fire is more alive than we are-brighter, hotter, more sure of itself and where it wants to go. Fire doesn't settle; fire doesn't tolerate; fire doesn't "get by." Fire does.Fire is.I really did have an internal struggle on whether or not I liked what was happening in this one. I wrestled with the idea that, while I am in love with these types of books, this was really dumb. But it comes down to more than that, it comes down to if the positive outweighs the negative...and, for me, it did. And that big positive that made this whole book worth it? Our main character, John.People scurry around, doing their little jobs and raising their little families and shouting their meaningless emotions to the world, and all the while you just watch from the sidelines, bewildered. This drives some sociopaths to feel superior, as if the whole of humanity were simply animals to be hunted or put down; others feel a hot, jealous rage, desperate to have what they cannot. I simply felt alone, one leaf sitting miles away from a giant, communal pile.Emotionless, lacking empathy, and a social outcast, John was my favorite type of character, at the moment. Well, I like a little more empathy in my boys, but, hey-You get what I mean. Not without the quirky inner monologue or the twisted humor of the writing would this book have succeeded-of that I'm sure. John would not be a likable character to read about had we not gotten his odd rationalizations of the goings on around him or the way he views human flaws, such as love and loyalty. In a way, he's broken. He longs to feel something, anything, if only to be like those around him-He can't even cry. He gets jealous that others have this ability, and that's why he is so fascinated with serial killers-weird sounding, I know! But, when you feel like you're on the verge of being one yourself, it only makes sense to latch onto the one connection in this world you are sure is your only link to humanity. "You're weird, man," said Max, taking another bite of his sandwich. "That's all there is to say. Someday you're going to kill a whole bunch of people-probably more than ten, because you're such an overachiever-and then they're going to have me on TV and ask if I saw this coming, and I'm going to say,'Hell yes, that guy was seriously screwed up.'""Then I guess I have to kill you first," I said.You heard me right-He thinks he is destined to be a serial killer. And, because of this, he has a set of rules he rigidly follows. And it has worked...until a serial killer comes to town. Every day his 'monster' threatens to leak out, to identify with this new murderer-sorry, sorry, not murderer...SERIAL KILLER-in town. But when he finds out who is killing, he takes responsibility into his own hands. Who better to find a serial killer...than a destined-to-be serial killer?"I've been clinically diagnosed with sociopathy," I said. "Do you know what that means?""It means you're a freak," he said."It means that you're about as important to me as a cardboard box," I said. "You're just a thing-a piece of garbage that no one's thrown away yet. Is that what you want me to say?""Shut up," said Rob. He was still acting tough, but I could see his bluster was starting to fail-he didn't know what to say."The thing about boxes," I said, "is that you can open them up. Even though they're completely boring on the outside, there might be something interesting on the inside. So while you're saying all of these stupid, boring things, I'm imagining what it would be like to cut you open and see what you've got in there."-lol, is it deranged I laughed and loved that?Stellar, spot-on writing, wicked humor, and absolutely gruesome scenes that make you think deeper about life in general....I really liked this book. And, after looking at book two ratings and reviews, it seems book two is even darker, grittier, better. I cannot wait until I get the time to read book two. Because once John's exterior cracked? I fell in love with him. I can't wait to see how he wrestles with his dark side.For more of my reviews, please visit:

  • Stacy
    2019-02-01 02:31

    I wanted to read this book because of my fascination with serial killers and the intriguing slant in the main character's relationship with himself.While reading, I was put off by Wells' writing style. It came off as juvenile in that he writes as though he doesn't trust his readers to figure out fairly obvious things for themselves. He posts many unnecessary/rhetorical questions that the reader is (hopefully, or rather should be) already wondering about on her own. It's muddled in redundancy.All of this I could have put aside, and tried to, for the sake of the still intriguing concept and somewhat likable main character. However, a few more than 100 pages in, it took an unforgivable turn for the worse. I don't want to spoil anything for those who haven't read it yet and may still want to, so I will spare you any sort of real detail. Suffice it to say that it became very obvious fairly quickly that this book wasn't one I would care for in the slightest. I put it down without finishing it, which is something I usually have a hard time doing, but it was fairly easy with this one.

  • Priscilla
    2019-02-16 07:34

    Very nice, Mr. Dan Wells. Very nice, indeed.First Impressions:1. Slow at first, but after 100 *BAM*! What I'd like to call a 'double tap twist'. Not one, but two twists in the span of 2 pages!2. I really enjoyed the therapy sessions between John and Dr. Neblin.3. The plot was a general 'good'. The twist made things more interesting.4. Book focuses on character analysis of John's character. VERY interesting, reading from the mind of a sociopath. Sometimes though, he makes really stupid decisions. Very realistic character, 'normal' teenage boy with hobbies that would make others feel highly uncomfortable. You really wouldn't know John's a sociopath.5. I learned a lot about serial killers.Very good, and different read! I'm still pretty floored about the twist. Very unexpected. Video review up tomorrow...hopefully :)

  • Cynn
    2019-01-30 08:20

    «La noción de que yo fuera un sociópata no era nueva para mí; sabía desde hacía mucho tiempo que no conectaba con los otros. No les entendía y ellos tampoco me comprendían a mí, y fuera cual fuese el lenguaje emocional que utilizara, aprenderlo parecía estar fuera de mi alcance.»En I Am Not A Serial Killer nos encontramos con una historia realmente perturbadora y extraña en la que tenemos como protagonista a John Wayne Cleaver,un chico de 15 años que a pesar de que aparenta ser normal está en constante lucha con sí mismo para dejar de lado sus pensamientos más oscuros que lo definen como un probable asesino en serie. John es observador y cuando un asesino llega a su ciudad encuentra el momento oportuno para mostrar esos conocimientos que aprendió durante su vida sobre los asesinos en serie. Pero al seguir de cerca al asesino empieza a sentir que su propio instinto oscuro puede despertar totalmente,lo que lo aterra ya que no sabe si va a poder callar esos pensamientos. Cuando conoce la verdadera identidad del asesino no sabe qué hacer: si permitir que siga asesinando o permitir que su lado más oscuro escape de su interior y matar al asesino de una vez por todas.Madre mía, la historia es muy buena. No he visto la serie "Dexter" y por esto mismo me resultó muy original (algunos dicen que se parece a esta serie, por eso lo aclaro).La historia te lleva a leer las páginas de manera sencilla,no me aburrió en ningún momento. Lo que sí, me llevé una gran sorpresa a cómo la historia cambia su curso con el hecho del "asesino en serie" pero Dan Wells lo manejó excelente y me dejó satisfecha con sus partes sobrenaturales. Realmente los detalles, las observaciones que hace John son aterradoras, más cuando tienen que ver con la violencia y la necesidad de "ver sangre".«Lo maldije en aquel momento, no porque las lágrimas fueran falsas,sino porque eran reales. Lo maldije por mostrarme con todas sus lágrimas, sus sonrisas y sus emociones sinceras que el verdadero engendro era yo»La historia está narrada en 1º persona y sí, nos damos cuenta que Walker es un niño realmente perturbado. A pesar de parecer un joven algo desquiciado yo creo que lo que él realmente necesita es ayuda. Es decir, el chico sabe que algo malo le está pasando y es por esto que pide ayuda pero es difícil encontrarla cuando la gente no te comprende. Y aunque tenga su lado perverso y realmente terrorífico también tiene su lado humano,en el que un adolescente lucha constantemente consigo mismo. Yo le tomé cariño y no sé porque, pero me encariñé con él. Realmente disfruté mucho conocer su punto de vista de las cosas y lo que me gustó aún más fueron los detalles que hace con respecto a las cosas que ve. Realmente es un chico muy observador y calculador.I am not a serial killer es un libro dónde podés aburrirte al máximo o entregarte a la historia y pasar una lectura con pura tensión por el suspenso. Es una historia que disfruté y como me gusta este tipo de género es algo que me hizo querer leer más sobre este tipo, me gustó mucho mucho.Es una trilogía y no sé cómo va a continuar esta historia pero sé que John tiene el muro derribado lo que no va a detener que esos pensamientos oscuros se conviertan en acciones. Genial

  • Snotchocheez
    2019-02-06 07:20

    1.5 stars Despite the obvious similarity to Jeff Lindsay'sDexter series and the overwhelming feeling of revulsion from a YA-ish novel wallowing in the realm of real-life serial killers, I still was somewhat intrigued by Dan Wells' I Am Not a Serial Killer and plowed through the the first 100 pages like a starving man breaking a fast with an Italian BMT from Subway......but then realized that the delicious sandwich I'd been nom-noming on was made of inedible food stuff. (Wax? Offal? Fecal matter?) Wells front-loads his thriller with umpteen references to the most notorious serial killers in history (everyone from Jack the Ripper to Ted Bundy to Ed Gein to Dennis Rader to Jeffrey Dahmer...hell, even the protagonist, 15 year-old John Wayne Cleaver {named for the famed actor} thinks he wasreally named after John WayneGacy the killer clown, and his father being named Sam Cleaver makes him theSon Of Sam...get it?) Yeah, our protag, young Mr.Cleaver (a mortuary owner's son in the tiny town of Conway...somewhere in the Midwest US) is obsessed with serial killers. Indeed, he's been diagnosed with sociopathic tendencies and Antisocial Personality Disorder, and is terribly concerned that the "monster inside" is trying to make him a serial killer, too. Then a real "serial killer" emerges, and begins terrorizing the residents of Conway, and the bodies start rolling into his mother's mortuary, and you just know Johnny's gonna lose his marbles over these gruesome murders and find the perpetrator, andthentherugis pulledoutfromunderthereader.Everything from that point onward (roughly page 100 of 270) becomes laughable and utterly ridiculous. I should've known from the "Tor" imprint (of tor.com fame, the indie SF/fantasy publisher/website) that this was not going to be a conventional thriller, but the bait-and-switch (from straightforward serial killer story to a "supernatural thriller") was, for me, impossible to swallow. (Evidently not for others, though: there's at least three more "John Wayne Cleaver" sequels out there, with even higher GR star ratings than this one. Rest assured, though: I won't be torturing myself with them).

  • Coos Burton
    2019-02-14 04:17

    "No soy un serial killer" fue para mí un gran descubrimiento, definitivamente es de aquellos libros por los que no daba mucho, pero me terminó sorprendiendo de una manera positiva. Me gustó la forma en la que la historia está narrada, al ser del género young adult yo esperaba un tono mucho más light que el que me encontré. Los crímenes en esta novela están perfectamente construidos y detallados, como para revolverle las tripas a quienes estén dispuestos a adentrarse en los avernos de un adolescente obsesionado con los asesinos seriales, y que alimenta su morbo ayudando a embalsamar cuerpos en la empresa fúnebre que lleva su madre. El hecho de toparme con términos médicos en los procedimientos de embalsamamiento hace que la descripción de los sucesos sea más puntual, y por lo tanto, más gráfica y explícita, y puedo asegurar que logró impresionarme bastante. (view spoiler)[ Otra cosa que me gustó mucho fue el giro paranormal que tomó la trama. Estaba convencida de que iba a ser un thriller sin demasiadas vueltas, pero el tema del asesino sin duda me dejó satisfecha e hizo que el libro tomara más la estructura de un libro de terror(hide spoiler)]Estaré realizando la respectiva video-reseña en mi canal, por lo que no daré mucha más información, pero indefectiblemente, otro libro que rompe con mis expectativas y prejuicios, bien por Dan Wells. Definitivamente voy a continuar con esta saga para ver qué me deparan los siguientes títulos.

  • Annalisa
    2019-02-09 02:11

    John Wayne Cleaver knows he's a sociopath. He loves fire; he's curious about the insides of animals (and the dead bodies that come to mortuary owned by his mother); and he was a bed wetter. Anyone fascinated by serial killers (like John, okay and me) knows those are the three characteristics attributed to serial killers. In fear of his own dark potential, he follows rules to keep up the appearance of a normal teenager and keep himself safely away from danger. Then a serial killer strikes his town. In order to find and destroy the monster, John must let down his wall of rules and let his own monster out.Wells does such a good job putting you into John's head that you can root for him even while you're disturbed by him. He's a good kid, but I certainly wouldn't wish any girl to be his girlfriend or even his mom to be his mom. He made a fascinating protagonist as he struggled with his lack of empathy, how to read and connect with people, and where to find his moral ground. Wells asks the question of what makes a monster: the kid who restrains his dark tendencies, feeling nothing at the death he witnesses, or the one who kills out of need and cries for his victims. The plot took a disappointing turn, bringing in story elements that were unnecessary for the metaphorical message of John's battle (the only reason I didn't give it five stars), but the story was still fascinating and intense. It starts with an embalming and ends with, well I wouldn't tell you that. But it's good. If you are at all fascinated by sociopaths, serial killers, morticians, unconventional protagonists, or a little gore in your thrillers, than you'll enjoy this book.

  • seak
    2019-01-25 09:26

    4.5 StarsWhat a surprisingly good book. The pacing was great, the plotting tight, and John Wayne Cleaver is a great, if not utterly bizarre, kid with whom to enjoy the ride. Seriously, this was one of the weirdest books I've ever read, let alone enjoyed this much. What are the three things 95% of serial killers have in common? Bed-wetting, pyromania, and animal cruelty...and John has all three. The story is told in first person by John Wayne Cleaver, who recently entered high school...and also happens to be a sociopath. Not only is he obsessed with serial killers, but he has his own monsters to contend with. He also has no problem with dead bodies as his family owns a mortuary and they live just above it.Suddenly, a string of murders begin showing up in the small community of Clayton County and as John explains it to his "friend" Max, it's like when you're favorite comic book author shows up in town, he's almost elated. And who better to stop a sociopath than another sociopath right?I never thought I'd be laughing to myself this much over such a creepy subject, but I Am Not a Serial Killer is told with a proper blend of seriousness and plenty of jokes...about killing and whatnot. Creepy/funny = Freepy?For example:"People always think it's creepy to live over a mortuary, but it's really just like any other house. Sure, we have dead bodies in the basement, but we also have a chapel, so it balances out. Right?"There are plenty of other one-liners and puns, I guess it's amazing what you'll laugh at. :) I Am Not A Serial Killer is also amazingly well researched not only in terms of serial killer references, but also in terms of a very realistic look into the mind of a possible serial killer, who also happened to be extremely likable. But I guess that's how serial killers tend to be, they can be extremely likable people, think Ted Bundy I guess.Even though my wife looked at me in a very strange way when she saw I was reading this, and your significant other probably will too, I Am Not A Serial Killer is HIGHLY RECOMMENDED.

  • Stan
    2019-01-26 03:21

    I actively avoid horror in books, movies, or on television. Ironically, I had a hard time putting this book down, and finished it in what is (for me) record time (three days).Wells creates a main character that is simultaneously disturbing, sympathetic and likable. What amazed me even more than that was Wells' ability to forge the character in such a plausible way that I ended up seeing things through the eyes of John Cleaver: sociopath.I'll admit that there's some gore in the book, but I give credit to Wells for avoiding gore merely for shock value. Anything gory (and I didn't actually think it was egregious to begin with) is there to advance the story, and not in a contrived way, either.The humor was sprinkled throughout the book, and served to keep it light, despite its inherently dark nature.Tension was good, the plot twists were unexpected (especially when John figures out who the killer is), and the use of internal character conflict solid. Wells' book is supremely believable (even with some semi-fantasy elements), intelligent, and enjoyable.My hearty congratulations to the author. I look forward to reading the rest of the trilogy. Tor made a wise decision to pick up John Cleaver's world.

  • Cait (Paper Fury)
    2019-01-29 01:30

    I'm going to stay nice and calm during this review. You know, calm. Ha. Ha. OH MY GOSH. I AM SO FREAKED OUT RIGHT NOW. But I will be calm. I promise.If you're looking for a freaky YA book, this is it.I'm not a YA horror expert, or anything, but this is the most scary book I've read. Which is why it got 5-stars, of course. Who doesn't like to be freaked out of their fuzzy socks? Characters?Our narrator is 15-year-old John Wayne Cleaver. He has sociopathic tendencies...so think of a person who's devoid of empathy. I think he was written extremely well. He actually reminded me, a lot, of Christopher from The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-Time. Same style of voice. Same sort of intelligence and detachment from what humans categorise as "normal thinking". Basically, John freaked me out. He wasn't just fighting murder, he was fighting tendencies. It says it in the blurb!"He wants to be a good person, but fears he is a sociopath, and for years he has suppressed his dark side through a strict system of rules designed to mimic 'normal' behaviour." No, no! It's okay. I'm fine. I'll keep...writing this (without running around in ballistic circles checking under the bed and stuff). There's so much talk about sociopaths and psychopaths and serial killers and mortuaries...I found the whole thing fascinating.Not in the same way John did, though! Seriously. Noooo. It was fascinating in that I learnt how mortuaries embalm bodies, and how therapists talk to sociopaths and how parents struggle to relate to kids with no empathy. I really like seeing different angles in books, and this showed me a WHOLE new angle I'd never seen a book deal with.My only complaint was that it's not realistic.I thought it'd be a contemporary thriller. But it merges with paranormal. Maybe if you know that going in, it wouldn't be disappointing. But frankly, I like murder mysteries. I like the reality of find whodunnit.Writing?It's very factual. I've readPartialsandFragmentsby Dan Wells, and while I see a similarity in his styles, this is a whole other kettle of fish. While it's not gushing with emotional phrases, I enjoyed the detail and thought patterns. It's different. It tells it as it happens, with basically no empathy, but it's so horrible you're glued to the page. Instead of being emotionally involved. I'm emotionally scarred instead. I'm also a fan of gallows humour.John Green uses it. Doug McLeod uses it. The humour is dark and creepy and might "cross-the-line". Just don't take it too seriously.I will never sleep again.But hey. That's what freaky books are for.

  • Gaby
    2019-02-16 01:34

    2016 Reading Challenge 27#: Un libro de misterio que involucre un asesinatoEste libro es tan bueno por muchas razones. Una de ellas es que el protagonista es un sociópata, y yo amo estar en la mente de esas personas que no tienen corazón.Normalmente los asesinos en serie son, en realidad casi siempre, esclavos de sus compulsiones. Matan porque tienen que hacerlo y no pueden evitarlo.John no es capaz de sentir como los demás, por no decir que no es capaz de sentir en lo absoluto. Él, se esfuerza por fingir que es una persona normal, cosa en la que fracasa miserablemente, ya que todos se alejan de él e incluso está obligado a visitar a un terapeuta porque está obsesionado con los asesinos en serie.Dada mi fascinación con los libros insanos y más que todo con los asesinos, lo disfruté de principio a fin. Esa mezcla de terror con humor negro es fantástica, y ese toque paranormal aunque se me hizo raro al principio, después que me adapté a él no pude más que comerme el libro.Una lectura un tanto grotesca, entretenida, y con una escritura que te devoras el libro en una sentada. Lo recomiendo mucho.

  • Amar
    2019-01-30 08:40

    Ugodno sam iznenadjen jer je drugacija od bilo cega sto sam citao u posljednje vrijeme. Brzo se cita i nije nimalo dosadna. Mix paranormalnog i trilera je odlicno uklopen plus na to sve dodati psihopatskog mladica koji svoju psiho stranu zove: Mr. Monster... fantasticno. Radujem se nastavcina...Ocjena: Nesto izmedju 4 i 5., ali da ne cjepidlacim, neka bude 5 jer sam se pravo dobro proveo.

  • Sonia
    2019-02-10 07:18

    Vale, quizá el que haya encontrado este libro simpatiquísimo sea extraño, porque no es un tema agradable y mucho menos para conversarlo (ya lo intenté, y no recibí miradas normales), pero es súper interesante leer un libro escrito desde la perspectiva de un sociópata y todo lo que hace para controlar sus tendencias. Además, rarezas aparte, John es muy inteligente y, para qué negarlo, carismático cuando quiere. Supongo que el que se haya propuesto como meta detener a otro asesino (aunque este no fuera humano) fue el aliciente perfecto para desatar a "Mr. Monster", y siempre he encontrado fascinante la naturaleza de un psicópata y cómo este tiene que aprender conductas para no sentirse ajeno a la realidad y adoptarlas cuando sea necesario frente al resto del mundo aun cuando estos comportamientos empáticos sean totalmente ajenos a él. Me gusta como Wells trató el tema, con tranquilidad y seriedad en partes iguales, dándole la importancia y al mismo tiempo haciéndolo parecer menos grave tratándose de un chico de quince totalmente consciente de su condición y que no quiere ser visto como un "bicho raro" o un "freak". Hizo lo mejor que pudo y, a grandes rasgos, lo logró.En resumidas cuentas, este libro tiene la combinación perfecta: asesinos seriales, poca censura y escenas viscerales (ups), además de un hombre como protagonista, que es casi la única manera en que prefiera la narración en primera persona. Siempre he pensado que las personas del sexo masculino tienen una manera más llamativa de narrar historias, sumándole la objetividad y el poco emocionalismo que cargaba la atmósfera.

  • Jessica
    2019-02-03 03:38

    Apparently, it really is "always the quiet ones." I've known Dan Wells for a couple of years. He's nice, unassuming, Battlestar Galactica fan, so not unlike most of the people I know, really. But it turns out that Dan has intimate knowledge of embalming techniques and is a walking serial killer encyclopedia. Not to mention he possesses a talent for writing scenes which will make you regret eating lunch. Ever again. (I will also never be able to eat liver or anything that looks like liver ever again. Not that I was a huge fan of liver, but still, that menu choice is now closed to me. Permanently.)This is an intense book. A fascinating book. A well-plotted book. A book that asks the question, if you thought you had the potential to become a serial killer, what would you do? Would you embrace it, or would you seek help? John Cleaver is trying to make that decision, largely on his own, at the age of fifteen. But sadly for John, there's a real serial killer in town. Should he find this person? And if he does, should he just watch with fascination, or should he try to stop them? It's a moral puzzle more so than a murder mystery, especially since the murderer and their motive is revealed fairly early on, since they aren't the focus of the book, John is. I do wish that the big twist about the murderer's true identity hadn't been given away so early, but it didn't ruin the book, so why not?It's a great book, an amazing debut, and really, really, no I mean it, REALLY gross.

  • Jess
    2019-02-11 05:32

    Truthfully, I'm not sure what to rate this! John Cleaver (the MC) is so fascinating, but he's not always likable. But he's not supposed to be. And the writing is so good that I'm not sure what to rate it: a 3, 4, or a 5.(3 because I usually like my characters more likable, 4 for plot, and tension, 5 because the writing is amazing.) I'm not really sure who I'd recommend this to. It's dark and disturbing, but the most disturbing thing is just how much I enjoyed it. Don't get me wrong, I like John a lot as a narrator. He has a very dark inside, but he's desperately trying to do the right thing. (Maybe I'm just a sucker for stories with a moral struggle or something.) He has a macabre sense of humor, but it fit right in. Overall, probably the most well-written book I've read in a long time. I will for sure read the next one...assuming John doesn't give in. (Dan Wells, you have no idea how upset I'll be if he does!!!!!!)Oh, a quick warning: it has some supernatural elements to it. I didn't get that so when a certain scene happened it took a bit to process the action.So if you like darker books, I'd highly recommend this.A few of my favorite quotes "You are alway in control of your own destiny, and you are always the one who makes your own choices--no one else."and the quote that really sums up the whole book for me, "So when a cowboy kills somebody you don't even blink, because it happens every day. But when a clown kills somebody, that's new--that's something you've never seen before. Here's someone you thought was good, and he's doing something so terrible that normal human emotion can't even deal with it--and then he turns around and does something good again. That's fascinating, Mom."Just like this book.

  • Sandra
    2019-02-19 05:34

    John Wayne Cleaver ist 15 Jahre alt, ganz offiziell ein Soziopath, gelegentlicher Bettnässer, liebt es Tote einzubalsamieren und ist definitiv der Dämonenjäger meines Herzens!

  • Rachel Ramirez
    2019-02-17 06:33

    How has it taken me so long to find and read this book!? It's absolutely fantastic and might be a new favorite book and series for me. Lately I've read books that have been meh or okay. Think it might have been a mini reading slump as it was hard for me to have interest in reading. I'd grown a bit bored so I took a break when the holidays came. Decided to try this book as it was suggested by my fiance purely on the fact that he found the title amusing. Haha he was definitely right about the title. Still I wasn't expecting that this book would completely revive me and end my bordeom. From the moment I started reading, this book had this kind of jolting impact on me. It felt like my eyes had been opened to this author and his interesting character. I haven't read writing this griping and easy to understand in a long time. Was happily surprised that this shortish book was so well thought-out. John Wayne Cleaver is one of the most fascinating characters I've stumbled upon in a long time! He isn't the typical good or bad boy I'm used to reading as he's somewhere trying to balance who he is. I like him even though I probably shouldn't. Honestly I think everyone needs to give this book a try. It is that good! This is a must read series for me now! Definitely need to find the independently made movie so I can watch it as soon as possible.

  • Caro
    2019-02-19 06:34

    Popsugar 2018 reading challenge: BÁSICO9. Un libro acerca de un villano o antihéroe - En varios niveles, este libro es perfecto para esta categoríaUn libro YA que más bien parece dirigido a chicos de entre 13 y 16 años, pero que disfruté bastante. Un libro rápido de leer, que tiene una trama "interesante" y que me llamó mucho a atención. El plot twist me pareció bastante bueno y sentí que conectaba muy bien con la historia.Los detalles negativos que le veo es que es terriblemente repetitivo (Sí John, ya entendimos tu obsesión, no hace falta que se repita 15 veces por capítulo) y siento que hay muchas cosas que se manejan de forma muuuuy general/ligera respecto ciertos detalles psicológicos, peeero como dije, es un libro que pretende entretener, así que no vamos a encontrar un manual de diagnostico ¿verdad? (por cierto, si sintieron la necesidad, no se auto-evalúen con lo que dice el libro porfa)En general me resultó muy entretenido y seguro que continuaré la saga.Para el resto de la serie de, pica en las portadas:

  • Lou
    2019-02-09 08:15

    John cleave has all the makings of a killer that 'McDonald triad' theory cruelty to animals, pyromania and bed wetting and his name to boot has strains of killing in it as he is son of Sam, Sam Cleaver and cleaver as in a weapon of choice to murder. I learned a bit about embalming, sociopaths, serial killers and formaldehyde in this story. He was dissecting animals by the age of 8 and increasing in behavioral problems and had to regularly visit a psychologist. With all this happening to a now 15 year old he meets his match a real killer. The story becomes more about another killer and that's when i started to find the story head into a bit of a silly theme. Should i spoil the story and tell you what happens i think i won't because you just might like it. I can see what the writer was trying to do to a subject that has been overly written by authors, he tried to sound a bit Dexterish with with some strange paranormal twist. The story started good frist few chapters but did not deliver some really good writing for me in the end.Some info on Macdonald triad, that i fished from the net.The Macdonald triad (also known as the triad of sociopathy) is a set of three behavioral characteristics that are associated with sociopathic behavior. The triad was first identified by J.M. Macdonald in "The Threat to Kill", a 1963 paper in the American Journal of Psychiatry.The triad links animal cruelty, obsession with fire setting, and persistent bed-wetting past the age of five to violent behaviors, particularly homicidal behavior.[2] Although other studies have not found statistically significant links between the triad of violence and violent offenders, many serial killers exhibited these behaviors during childhood. Contract killer Richard Kuklinski, serial killer Jeffrey Dahmer and serial killer Dennis Rader all engaged in acts of animal cruelty.In a study involving hospitalized patients [Macdonald] focused on patients who had threatened to kill rather than on patients who had killed, although some subjects later committed homicide. His sample consisted of forty-eight psychotic and fifty-two non-psychotic patients. He found that sadistic patients often had three characteristics in common in their childhood histories. These factors... consisted of chronic bedwetting, firesetting, and torturing small animals.Further studies have suggested that these behaviors are often the product of parental neglect, cruelty or trauma, and that such events in a person's childhood can result in "homicidal proneness".

  • María
    2019-02-03 02:15

    La verdad es que este libro me ha sorprendido bastante BUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUT no me ha llegado a convencer del todo. Es muy ameno y se lee muy rápido, cosa que me ha gustado mucho, ya que odio que los libros se pongan muy pesados.La historia empezó bastante bien hasta que aparecieron fenómenos sobrenaturales. A mí en este tipo de novelas no me suelen gustar estas cosas, pero bueno, al final me terminó hasta gustando. La verdad es que no estuvo mal, pero me pareció que todo sucedía muy rápido, que aunque se diera a entender que el protagonista lo tenía todo muy pensado y calculado meticulosamente, da la sensación de que realmente hace lo primero que se le ocurre por la cabeza. Sé que no me estoy explicando bien xD pero espero que la gente que haya leído el libro si me entienda.Me hubiera gustado que se hubiera descrito mejor a los personajes. Veo muy poca profundidad en la historia y en los personajes y no es algo que me guste sabiendo que es una trilogía.El protagonista me gusta, pero no he podido conectar con él casi nunca, algo positivo, ya que el prota es un sociópata.También tengo la sensación de que es una historia un poco para adolescentes y a mí se me ha quedado algo "infantil". Esperaba algo más gore, más siniestro, algo que me hiciera reflexionar más sobre los asesinos en serie.De todas formas, no me ha parecido una mala novela y creo que si lo hubiera leído hace varios años me hubiera gustado mucho más. Le doy 3.5 estrellas y continuaré con la trilogía.

  • Jamie L
    2019-02-15 07:16

    This book was ridiculous for too many reasons to count.Biggest complaint: felt like it was written by three different people and NOT in a collaborative sense. More of a I-don't-feel-like-writing-anymore-so-I-handed-it-off-to-my-friend sort of way. IDK, maybe the author has MPD or something.Next: I HATE it when a teenager is the narrator/1st person in the book but the language is that of a 35 yr old English PhD. I have another book in this list with the same issue and I didn't like that book either.Next: The book was written by a dude in Orem, UT, with 4 small children. Translate: Mormon. Who cares if he's Mormon, but at least stay true to the language a modern day teenager who is *not a serial killer* would use. I don't read a book so I can read the swears, but "golly gee" and "holy heck" are making the characters even less believable than they already are.I'm sure there's more, but I'm bored even writing about it.That is all...

  • Cheryl
    2019-01-31 09:40

    A quirky book that blends a few genres together to make an interesting story. The hero is high school freshman John Wayne Cleaver, who's interested in serial killers and diagnosed by his therapist as having antisocial personality disorder. He lives over his family's mortuary, where he assists his mother with the embalming. John knows he has certain tendencies in common with the serial killers he studies, so he strictly keeps all such urges under control.But when multiple unresolved murders occur in his town, he thinks a serial killer is responsible. Fascinated by the victims' bodies that are embalmed in his family's mortuary, John decides he's going to find the person behind the murders. (It takes one to know one.) What happens then makes for a very unusual story.

  • Laura
    2019-02-11 09:28

    Honestamente, me pareció malisimo. Muy obvio, básico, lleno de cliches y súper repetitivo con algunas cosas que quedan muy claras de entrada y que no son necesarias machacar en nuestras cabezas una y otra vez. Un fiasco total

  • Literary Ames {Against GR Censorship}
    2019-02-08 04:14

    As a cross between TV shows Six Feet Under and Dexter for a YA audience (hmm, really?) this was a fascinating and insightful look into the sociopathic mind of a fifteen-year old boy as he attempts to take down a demon serial killer that goes on a rampage in his small town. Strong stomachs are required for this gruesome psychological thriller with undertones of black humour. Or a sick bag.First off, I must say, sociopathy is becoming popular, is it not?[image error]I referenced Six Feet Under for the family-run mortuary and black comedy, and Dexter for the serial killer with rules but I noticed the one thing they have in common: Michael C. Hall. He stars in both shows. Is he Dan Wells? If not, he must be a fan because the similarities between the TV and book are uncanny. This is good by the way. I loved both.Anyway, I digress.Named after the actor and consequently a serial killer, and a weapon, John Wayne Cleaver struggles to appear normal in his quest to not let his inner monster out. In order to succeed he studies what he doesn’t want to become: The Serial Killer. He knows about them all: number of kills, technique used, forensic profiles -the lot. You see, if he understands their motives, what makes them tick then he can create rules for himself to prevent him from becoming...Just. Like. Them.John as an adult?His obsession to the outsider is unsettling as it appears he idolises and wants to imitate the killers. He talks about it to anyone and everyone, even submitting school reports on them:”The project I did last year was on Jeffrey Dahmer,” I said. “He was a cannibal who kept severed heads in his freezer.”“I remember now,” said Max, his eyes darkening. “Your posters gave me nightmares. That was boss.”“Nightmares are nothing,” I said. “Those posters gave me a therapist.”John comes clean with the therapist for the most part but because he’s under 18 his issues are discussed with his mother. She doesn't understand, instead she gets mad at him for things he can’t (or is desperately fighting to) control. You see, he has many of the predictors of becoming what he fears: he’s an intelligent and insightful sociopath who’s studied human behaviours in order to understand and emulate them, he works part-time in a mortuary run by his family (helping with the embalming process so he’s constantly surrounded by death, natural and otherwise), and he’s killed and cut into animals with no human victims. Yet.Throughout, John’s level-headedness cons you into believing he isn’t really a bad guy. There’s nothing wrong with him. He's just your typical teenager. That is until you witness one of his outbursts when he’s pushed to breaking point. The monster comes out, and he ain’t nice. It’s quite shocking as you begin to understand what John has to contend with in order to remain part of society without giving into his urges. It's a chilling reminder that he is not an innocent hero even though you're rooting for him.In a way Wells addresses the subject of vigilantes:’I wasn’t sad, I was thoughtful; I didn’t feel bad that ________ was dead, just guilty that I hadn’t been able to stop his killer . I wondered then if I was doing all of this because I wanted to save the good guys, or if I just wanted to kill the bad guy. And I wondered if that made a difference.’Does it matter his intentions, altruistic or not, as long as he disposes of the murderer? But then what do you do with the one that did the murdering? You still have a killer on your hands. He may hurt someone else, perhaps a completely innocent person -a conundrum. My favourite scene was the ultimate comeback to a bully’s comments at the school dance. John made it into a personal threat so that not only was it scary but 100% true which made it all the scarier. In Max’s words “that was awesome”. It totally was. :DI Am Not a Serial Killer was incredibly realistic. There were moments that really resonated with me -a testament to Wells' research and a great understanding of the human psyche. Everything was so well-developed, the characters and the dysfunctional relationships all realistic, and here’s the But. (view spoiler)[The demon. (hide spoiler)] It was so out there. The setting of the book was in the real world, nothing paranormal about it and all of a sudden we have this (view spoiler)[hideous beast (hide spoiler)]. Huh? I wasn’t quite sure if he was real or a figment of John’s imagination. Was he beginning to lose his mind? Hallucinating? Is he schizophrenic? Was he the killer, projecting what he was on to someone else? This is what studying psychology does to you. You can’t take anything at face value. Eventually I was left with a final question: Was it going to be a Sixth Sense twist ending? Which leads me to the different ways certain aspects of this book can be interpreted. On the surface, instead of teen angst we get a fight to remain "normal", to fit in with everyone else, to be accepted by society –all classic signs of being a teenager. Perfect stuff for a YA novel, right? Sneaky.A 15-year old taking on a serial killer is perfectly normal in the real world. It happens everyday. Maybe not. John tries pointing the good guys in the right direction. It was lambs to the slaughter. Cannon fodder. "Messy" doesn't quite cover it. So it was up to him, as an expert on killers and with an inner demon of his very own he understood how this one worked. Unfortunately he has to sacrifice his hard won control in order to fight the demon. And once the cat’s out of the bag, he can’t shove it back in. Eep! Mr. Monster is out. 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