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Little boy little boy, Curled in a ball. I know your secrets, I know them allI write in my journal as much as I can. I talk to Mr. Ted. He is my only friend. He understands when the bad man comes. He holds my hand when I have nightmares and my mummy doesn't hear me cry. Mr. Ted doesn’t tell. He won’t say when my daddy hurts me. He keeps my secrets and my stories. I love MrLittle boy little boy, Curled in a ball. I know your secrets, I know them allI write in my journal as much as I can. I talk to Mr. Ted. He is my only friend. He understands when the bad man comes. He holds my hand when I have nightmares and my mummy doesn't hear me cry. Mr. Ted doesn’t tell. He won’t say when my daddy hurts me. He keeps my secrets and my stories. I love Mr. Ted. He is the only one who loves me back.Mr. Ted.I keep falling asleep. Bad things happen. I get sore all the time. But I don’t know why. My mum says it’s a demon. Because I got evil. Please make me be good....

Title : Dear Teddy
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ISBN : 13611630
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Number of Pages : 108 Pages
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Dear Teddy Reviews

  • Yamilé
    2019-06-18 03:59

    From a Child’s Perspective...This book shows us vignettes in the life of little 5-year old J.D., a boy emotionally, physically and sexually abused by those with the strongest obligation to protect him and raise him to know right from wrong: his parents. Instead, this man and woman treat the boy as if he does not deserve human status. Just to mention some examples: they starve him; they talk to him in ways and with words he cannot comprehend, they beat him and, then, some more for crying out; they lie to him constantly and manipulate his young mind so that he perceives himself as purely evil: every time his mother or father get mad, it’s his fault; every time he resists --in the way any normal child would-- to some of their abusive requests and behaviors, it’s “the badness” inside him acting. Little J.D’s parents also let another person –someone the boy refers to as “the bad man” repeatedly molest and even rape their small son. If you think this is a heartbreaking story, you are right. If you are wondering why you should read it, there are a couple of aspects of the book that make the story even more harrowing, but also a must read. One of them is an issue I’ve thought about a lot: is, and how if so, the experience of physical and or sexual abuse different for a gifted child?The issue is not analyzed in the story for reasons I will disclose later, but small J.D. is clearly above average in intelligence: has learned to read and write before his fifth birthday, writes stories, is deeply sensitive and shows keen reasoning abilities, among other traits. I found it interesting to red how a gifted 12 year old deals with sexual abuse in Edinburgh, by Alexander Chee. Reading JD’s experience is also interesting. The other character knows his abuser (and his friends’ abuser) is a pedophile, because he comes from a loving, open-minded family, and has some notion of what one is. He still cannot grasp the man’s devious conduct in such a way as to perceive the difference with his budding homosexual feelings for his best friend, and is thus, overridden with guilt, feeling him and the abuser are, in some ways, the same.I am digressing in order to expose the shocking contrast of this experience with JD’s: at five, no matter how smart, a child is like a tabula rasa; he can reason with depth, he can wonder about incongruences in what he is told, but he is still a child; trusting and dependent on his parents, whom fill his minds with delusional ideas of demons, evilness, worthlessness, and all-consuming guilt.The way in which this boy’s parents manipulate him; the little thing people who don’t know anything about JD’s ordeal say, unwilling enforcing the crazy ideas his parents pour into his mind; the gradual process by which this sweet, love starved small boy becomes an increasingly guilt-ridden and self-loathing –yet still 5 years old-- is very well exposed, and worth reading.Finally, the narrative; the way the author chooses to tell the story. This is another reason you should read this book. In most memoirs of child abuse, the author takes us to moments of his childhood, gives us an idea of what he was like and how the abusive experience impacted on him. However, the accounts are always told from the author’s grown up perspective. This is not to ay they are badly written, or should not be read because of this. I think that way of telling the story gives you plenty of insight about the effects and dynamics of child abuse.But JD’s way also does, and it is very difficult to achieve. The way is the child’s perspective. We read none of adult JD’ thoughts and feelings on this book; not directly at least. The story is told by, should we say, “little JD”. Except for the small poems at the beginning of the chapters (factiously written by JD’s only friend: a teddy bear called “Mr. Ted”), all the story is told with the voice of a 5 year old boy’: with all the innocence, desperation, helplessness, guilt, and even the spelling mistakes.I think writing a book that actually can be read as if it were from a real 5-year old boy is an important accomplishment for a writer, and the view on child abuse you get by reading it is quite unique, as it is not the common way memoirs of this kind are written.I highly recommend this book.

  • April
    2019-05-22 06:35

    Soul shattering and utterly heartbreaking. I finished with tears in my eyes and an ache in my heart. I desperately want to embrace this young boy, tell him he is nothing but good and worthy of the greatest of love. I commend Mr. Stockholm for sharing his horrific story that is sure to be a soothing balm to other innocent victims. He is brave, courageous and an angel sent from God to lighten the darkest of lives and help to heal the deepest of wounds. Not an easy read by far, but one that sheds light upon the internal and external horror of shattered innocence.

  • Pam
    2019-05-25 08:53

    How many Teddy Bears are there around the world that hold these same secrets of the child that owns them? I cringe at the horror of that thought! Because in my heart, I know that there are way too many. Dear Teddy is written in the voice of a 5 year old child instead of the voice of an adult. The author is brilliant in doing this because it makes the reader actually see and hear this small, wonderful little boy. The reader actually gets to feel the physical and emotional pain of this child and therefore, takes on the role of Teddy. As I listened to this child spill his worst nightmares to me, I felt my claws begin to grow and my teeth begin to sharpen. In my mind, this reader literally became Mama Bear, a nickname that has become a part of me. This shows the brilliance and extreme talent of this author, J.D. Stockholm. While other reviewers have stated that they were brought to sobs and tears, I was not. I became angry and violent towards all adults who have these tendancies and mindsets of the people who were in this child's life. I became sick to "my tummy" from all of the lies that were forced into this sweet little child's mind making him believe every one. In my mind, I screamed at the world "WHERE THE HELL IS THIS CHILD'S GUARDIAN ANGEL?" This displays the awesome talent and yes, I will say it again, brilliance of this author. I can not and will not say that I loved this story. I can however, say that it is a book that every adult should and must read. If we as human beings don't know the hurt and pain that is going on around us then how can we stop it? J.D. Stockholm, you are a very talented author Sir, and I stand and applaud you. I will have to read your next book but only because I need to know whether or not this little boy survives and gets his happy ending.

  • Helen
    2019-05-26 10:41

    A quick read but certainly not an easy one. It is written in the words of a five year old who's only trusted friend is his teddy. He is abused and neglected by the two people who should have looked after him and loved him. Some people just shouldn't be allowed to have children. I just wanted to give the poor boy a big hug. A very emotional and hard hitting read about a very loveable and brave little boy. Will definitely be reading the next book to see if the poor little boy can find some happiness. Highly recommend this book but be prepared as it's a heartbreaking read.

  • Jenny Shepherd
    2019-06-03 02:58


  • Julie Dalglish
    2019-05-25 08:56

    heart breaking what some children survive

  • Cynthia
    2019-06-01 05:55

    I sit writing this review at the moment with tears still stinging my eyes. The intensity of my sadness is so profound that I find myself struggling to think of a way to put into words what exactly I am feeling. Sorrow, heartsickness, shock, anger, hate - they all seem too mild a word. Before starting this book, I knew it would be a hard read. Hard in the sense that this is child abuse we are talking about, and what is worse, unfortunately, not a fictitious tale. It is difficult and unpalatable to even conceive that there are people in the world that would do these things to their own children. That there are people out there that can be so insensitive and inhumane. It is even more horrendous to imagine this kind of thing still goes on the world. A young boy, whose sole aim and hope is to win the love of his parents, is constantly beaten down in his attempt while being abused and betrayed over and over again by the very two people who should have loved him unconditionally and protected him from all things bad - not been the source of them. Young, vulnerable and innocent, he seeks love and affection. He seeks it from the two people that should have freely given it to him - unadulterated. He seeks it from two monsters, who should have never been given the right to be parents. Completely ruthless and callous, they succeed in making a young, innocent boy believe he is unworthy of their love. Of anyone's love. His only consolation is in his teddy-bear. His only friend. His only confidante. One of the most heart-breaking moments in the book is when he questions even his inanimate teddy's affection, believing that he is undeserving of even that. The author has done a wonderful job in getting his story across. It is told through the eyes of the young boy, his childlike perspective making it even more touching and heartrending. The language used is equally effective. It jerks you awake to the horrid truth of this child's reality and to his innocent confusion as to why nobody can love him. And even more saddening, believing it is his fault that nobody can love him. J.D. Stockholm gives a unique insight into the psychology of this small, innocent boy, conveying a bleak and harsh reality that should never have been a part of his childhood. This is reinforced by the fact that throughout the story, the boy's name is never used. A lack of any kind of familial bond is made abundantly clear. Impersonal, cold. It amplifies the sense of the child's loneliness and despair. As children, we all know what it means to crave a mother or father's love and acceptance, so it is sad but understandable to see how, despite all that he endures and undergoes, the small child still loves his parents and wants nothing more than to gain their love as well. Even though they do not deserve it at all. As the author's name suggests, a Stockholm syndrome.The book is very well-written and grips you from the very start. It is difficult to put down and will have you tearing up on almost every page. The intensely profuse hate and anger you feel for the child's parents is just as strong as the extreme sorrow and sympathy you feel for this helpless small boy. Dear Teddy is a heartwrenching story, a horrifying account of a young boy's tragic ordeal. It is thought-provoking and definitely disconcerting. I highly recommend it and would describe it as a small piece of art. I "look forward to" reading the next book and desperately hope there is some happiness that awaits our little hero.

  • Teresa
    2019-06-13 04:43

    My heart broke over and over again, for this little boy. Monsters under your bed or in your closet, we've all heard of them; his were real.Innocence stolen. Trust broken. Betrayed by the very ones who should've protected him the most; his parents. It is unfathomable to me, that a child be imprisoned in such a loveless world of blame, cruelty, deception and pain, with only a teddy bear for comfort. This book gives its reader a sobering look into the terrifying world of child abuse, as seen through the survivor's eyes... a five-year-old boy.His courage and unbreakable spirit are prevalent throughout his story. Just as I did, you will feel what he felt; his sadness, bewilderment, embarrassment, self-hatred... even rage. And although it maybe a bit confusing to some, his loyalty and unconditional love for his parents are ever-present.In knowing this author personally, I have shared many a tear with him. I also know what a difficult decision it was, for him to share his story with the world. Thank you, J.D., for taking me into your confidence, for your trust, and for allowing it to be proven, that you could indeed be accepted, respected, and loved, when you thought no one would.For other survivors, I hope this book gives them a bit of comfort in knowing, that there are people out there who understand, and that they are not alone in their nightmares.Reading this book will definitely change you...if even for only a moment. I highly recommend that you purchase it, as you would be cheating yourself if you didn't.

  • Cham Perez
    2019-05-29 03:57

    W-O-W.This book deserves the top shelf of every bookcase existed. It's beautifully written and jaw-dropping. I knew what this book is all about. I knew it was all about rape and pedophilia and yet it still shocked me. It made me cringe, it made my eyebrows meet and of course, it made my jaw drop. It's disgusting and yet it's well crafted.The innocence of the child is so pure and his love for his parents is unconditional. He experienced some great turbulence in his life and he did things he did not understand and yet he does not question it. It was sad and sickening and pitiful. It was heart-wrenching and stomach twisting. It's that good of a book -- it made me feel all sorts of things. A lot of lessons can be learned from this book and the beauty of it is that it tackled sensitive topics like rape and pedophilia. It's genuinely raw and out there. It did not beat around the bush. This book is screaming to be read because it's a rare find. It's hard to find books who engages in topics like what this book did. I love the innocence of it and the pure, raw emotions the boy felt while he was being violated. Applause for J.D Stockholm for crafting such a masterpiece.

  • Vicki Easom Johnson
    2019-06-05 02:46

    What a tragic life JD had to endure! I cried, yelled, became calm then would cry and yell again and again. I wanted to climb in the book and take home away and hug him and tell him how much he is loved. Thankful that JD let us into his life by telling us his story through his voice when he was a child. I think it made me really get into the book on a deeper level than if I would have read it normally. It is graphic, but it is necessary for the reader to understand the depth of the abuse that was placed upon this child at the hands of his parents and many other abusing adults. What an incredible book! Thank you JD for allowing me a glimpse into your life. Much love and many many hugs are sent to you!

  • Tonya
    2019-06-04 04:36

    This book was difficult to read. Not because it wasn't well written but because of the tragic and horrific life this little boy led. Every emotion was stirred inside of me and I felt angry and vengeful. I wanted to kick open the door, wisk that boy out of that environment and cuddle him, rock him, and tell him he was so brave and that goodness will begin now. The point of view in this story only adds to the impact of the story. It was amazingly written. I must read the second book in order to find out if he is ever treated the way he deserves to be. I recommend this to anyone and everyone.

  • Vicky
    2019-06-07 10:44

    This story was extremely difficult for me to read. I had to stop many times while reading because I was crying or because I was unable to handle what I knew would come next. As the mother of two small boys, I was beyond horrified and beyond outraged by the abuse of this innocent little boy by his so-called parents, and not only by them. It's depressing to know these kinds of people actually exist. It scares me to think of what I will read in the next book. My heart goes out to this little boy and I wish he knows only happiness in his life now.

  • Sara Freitag
    2019-06-10 05:56

    This was one of the hardest books I have read. I almost didn't finish it cause it broke my heart and it made me cry on more than one occasion. I didn't realize it was a series and I really wanted to see how he overcame his horrific childhood. I didn't even realize I was close to being done until it was the end. Even thinking back to this book i can't wrap my head around it. With it being written like it was, from the child made it harder for me. It was week written and I am sure I will finish the series after while. I will need to prepare myself to.

  • Patricia
    2019-05-21 03:00

    This was a very difficult book for me to read. The horrors this child went through broke my heart . I just wanted to take him in my arms and cuddle him. Tell him that everything would be alright . How many teddies are holding secrets like that . I want to say thank you to the author for writing this book . Everyone should read this book and then dtry and so something to help these forgotten children

  • Lizzie Winns
    2019-06-15 10:42

    This book was really really sad, it was hard for me to finish it. I can't believe a mother and father can be this mean and abusive. Nobody cares about this child except his grandma, but his parents are trying to turn his grandma against him, they have already exceeded with turning his school against him. If this boy didn't have his beloved teddy bear with him, he would have given up on life already... So on to the next book in this series, I hope things get a little better for this child.

  • Liz Beth
    2019-06-03 08:36

    What a stunning book. Made me really ache for the little boy, who does not understand what is happening to him. The writing is a little bit confusing (even though it is supposed to be like that) but I found it hard to read at some places. But overall I think this is a book everyone should read. I almost cried.

  • Steph Barton
    2019-06-18 08:35

    A heartbreaking read. Read it in a matter of days as it touched the heart. I've read books like this before (before I had children myself) and this book definitely touched me more than others as you can't help but think about your child. I can't believe that any parent could treat their child like that..heartbreaking, but told in an amazing way.

  • Kelly
    2019-05-24 08:37

    Heartbreaking but beautifully written book told from the point of view of a 5 year old child. I could not put the book down. The author is incredibly brave for telling his story of experiencing horrific abuse in such an honest and innocent way.

  • Dootje
    2019-05-31 03:38

    Sad Sad tale that will make you cry and want to reach out to the little boy that suffered so much.

  • Andrea Williams
    2019-05-20 02:43

    Heartbreaking but AMAZING a MUST read !!! A real page turner,couldnt put it down.XxxX

  • Dusty
    2019-06-09 10:02

    So emotional every page makes you want to do all you can to help him

  • Ethan Martin
    2019-05-27 06:58

    Simply amazing its short but the emotional impact it has is unbelievable

  • Scarlette D'Noire
    2019-05-28 08:55

    Great book! Worth the read even though it is a sad story.

  • Kimberly
    2019-06-10 09:55

    I finished this book in a matter of hours. Many times I had to put it down to simply weep for the hurt the little boy was experiencing. As an abuse survivor myself, this story touched me on so many levels. I've read a few survivor stories, but never first person as the abuse was happening. My heart ached so many times, I just wanted to reach through and cradle him in my arms. I remember hugging my teddy and filling his soft fur with my tears the first night I was violated. It breaks my heart that the two people who were supposed to protect this innocent little boy violated his trust and love. It's horrible that he was put in the position to feel "safer" with one form of abuse and wish for it so the bad man wouldn't come. I'll be joining this little boy on the rest of his journey, though I wish this journey didn't exist

  • Jules Tai
    2019-06-18 09:37

    A devastating read that will make you think and maybe think about your own life....but so worth the read! Children should never have to suffer at the hands of abuse. All I want to do is give him all the hugs and love that he missed as a child and will need in the future. Events like this mold you can you believe in your own self worth if you've always be made to feel bad. This first book in the series is a journal from the POV of a 5 year old boy...where his monsters turn out not to be his imagination but real. It's horribly sad the mental and physical abuse he endures. It's made me re-examine my own childhood. This is not an easy read, but well worth it!!

  •  Charlie✰ WLTB Blog ✰
    2019-06-09 05:36

    Utterly heartbreaking.Will review once i can see through the tears

  • Jan
    2019-06-07 04:47

    READ THIS FOR JAMIE, AND READ IT BECAUSE IT'S UNFORGETTABLE!!!I have to say that this is the most profound book I have ever read. I've never felt such strong feelings of protectiveness and the need to be a part of a story ever before! I truly can't describe the experience I had while reading this. I couldn't read it for long periods of time because my emotions would overwhelm me, but I couldn't stay away because I had to be there for little Jamie. It seriously felt like I was abandoning him whenever I put the book down. I was drawn to reading Dear Teddy as if it had a magnetic force pulling me in. JD Stockholm has written his true story - the story his heart and body won't let him forget. It's the words of that little boy who lives within him. Words he only shared at the time with his beloved Mr. Ted. His therapist advised him to write down these childhood memories, and this is the result. There are very few good memories. Mostly they are memories of bad people who made little Jamie feel like he was a bad boy. A word word search of this book reveals 464 instances of the word "bad" being used. The largest share of those occurrences refer to this precious child believing he is bad, that he has bad inside of him. In contrast, the word "good" appears 118 times, and it's mainly used by little Jamie as he describes wanting to be good or trying to be good, even though he never understands why those people who should be loving him think he is so bad. The big question is, why did I read this heartbreaking book and why should other readers? The answer isn't easy to explain. I know it sat on my Kindle for a long time as I worked up the courage to read it. You see, I know where this story goes, up to the present. I know that this adorable little boy grew up to be a truly incredible man, an amazing author whose words are magical to his readers, a man who has chosen a a path in life that is truly admirable. So, I decided if he had the courage to write and publish this unforgettable story, I could certainly devote my time to reading it...and I'm so glad that I did. Read it for all of the little Jamies in the world.

  • Crystal
    2019-06-10 05:02

    This story is without a doubt thought provoking and emotional at the very least. I salute JD Stockholm for telling this story, in it's entirety, it would be easy to shelter the reader from the truth of this life, his life and everything he has experienced but he has found the strength to share this with his audience and I for one am genuinely honoured.And yet .. I truly thought I wouldn't be able to read this book due to the genuine heart breaking content but as I read, I felt as though I owed it to JD Stockholm to share this emotional story, I felt compelled to continue this journey as as result have ordered the other 3 titles in this series because I WANT to complete this journey with him.Of course this child should have never been subject to this childhood, he should have been loved unconditionally, in the appropriate way to love and cherish a child and to give everything their heart desires. I agree with comments of others in this regard. I acknowledge the inner strength and determination that this child and ultimately this man has shown in dealing with this. I salute Mr Ted, for he is everything that this child ever wanted in a friend and a protector. the relationship between the two is amazing. My heart broke for JD Stockholm from the start right to this very moment in this review.It would be easy to reflect on the adults in this negatively but this will in no way help JD Stockholm and as children, we only know what we experience, for good or for bad we love our parents because that is what children do and I would not disrespect JD Stockholm by projecting my feelings in that way.This is a detailed and descriptive read and yes, you should prepare yourself before heading this book but if you want to help a survivor, buy it. If you want to honour a child that hurts, buy it. If you want to understand what makes a person who they are, buy it. Ultimately, if you support JD Stockholm, buy it.Lastly, heartfelt thanks to JD Stockholm for sharing his life, his experiences .... your story inspires me to be a better person, of that, I thank you.

  • Wendy Wignall
    2019-06-01 08:52

    Oh my God, where do i start, I read this book a few days ago, but i needed time to digest what i had just read and how i was going to review it.This is a heartbreaking story by JD Stockholm, when as a 5 year old boy he had to endure Physical, emotional, sexual abuse and neglect from those who were supposed to love and protect him.This story tore me apart, I had to keep putting it down, and then going back to it, I was angry with the parents, I was heartbroken for this little boy, who only wanted to do good things so his parents would love him like they did his little brother, but all the time they told him he was bad and evil.I felt i had to finish this book, I felt I owed it to this little boy after everything he went through to at least finish it. This is just book 1 in the series, I will read them all, but i think I will have to read other book inbetween each of them as I know I will be shreaded emotionally.Considering the topic, this book was very well writen and kept me reading until the end.If you would like to support this little boy, please buy these books and read them.

  • Shelli
    2019-06-17 06:59

    I have to give this book 5 heartbreaking stars. This book was, by far, the hardest book I've ever read. I've hesitated on writing the review because I don't even know what to say about it, other than it devastated me feeling the pain of that little boy. It was written in the voice of a 5 yr old boy, and he pulls you right into his world and makes you feel his despair, his frustration at always "being bad", his fear and anxiety.No child should ever have to suffer through that, but I applaud Mr Stockholm for being brave enough to overcome it, and to write about it. I can only imagine the bravery and strength it took to put this all down in words and publish it. This book devastated me emotionally, but I am glad I read it, and I'd like to thank the author for being an inspiration to others!