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Wild Animus includes a novel, three original music CDs—The Ram, The Wolves and Animus—and primal Art Brut art. Experienced as a whole, the music expresses the emotional core of the story and the novel serves as its narrative shell.Wild Animus tracks the reckless quest of Ransom Altman, a young Berkeley graduate who—roused by his literary heroes and love for his girlfriend,Wild Animus includes a novel, three original music CDs—The Ram, The Wolves and Animus—and primal Art Brut art. Experienced as a whole, the music expresses the emotional core of the story and the novel serves as its narrative shell.Wild Animus tracks the reckless quest of Ransom Altman, a young Berkeley graduate who—roused by his literary heroes and love for his girlfriend, Lindy—resolves to live in a new world of “inexhaustible desire.” Ransom’s deepening identification with the wild mountain ram, whose passion and wisdom he seeks, drives the young lovers north—first to Seattle, then to the remote Alaskan wilderness. Alone on the unforgiving ridges of Mt. Wrangell, his imagination increasingly unhinged, Ransom begins to devise and act out a dangerous animal mythos, which he documents in a first-person manuscript, and in songs or “chants” that detail his transformation and pursuit by a pack of strangely familiar wolves.The feverish hunt leads from the wilds to civilization and back again. And when the lovers return to brave the perilous mountain together, the truth behind Ransom’s imagined transformation emerges. What they discover in those frozen heights threatens their love as well as their sanity and their lives.Is Ransom inspired by a transcendent truth, or prey to a misguided fantasy? As his grip on reality weakens, the reader shares Ransom’s fears, his hopes, and his extraordinary discoveries.Wild Animus is a search for the primordial and a journey to the breaking point. It is a story of love and surrender, of monomania—of striving, at all costs, for a bliss beyond fear....

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Wild Animus Reviews

  • Matthew
    2019-04-21 10:46

    (sarcasm alert- I don't actually think this book deserves five stars)All you people who've been trashing Wild Animus, the fine and revealing work by Mr. Rick Shapero, have been looking at everything the wrong way. Just look at it positively, and you'll feel better about it.For example, you could think about all the good things about it, like:* It's shorter than "Atlas Shrugged"! * If a genetically-modified polar bear attacks you with a flamethrower, you can distract it by throwing the book at its face, then run away! * Makes a useful gift for people you hate! * Finally provides an ending for the sentence, "Twilight is better than (fill-in-the-blank)." * Perfect weight and balance for throwing at a roommate who won't fracking shut up and let you go to sleep!Or, you could imagine that the tiny imperfections that mar this marvelous book don't exist. Imagine, for instance, that the protagonist isn't a completely selfish, moronic, insane idiot who does nothing useful at all, that the "love" "interest" isn't a horrifyingly passive victim, that the prose isn't so full of manure you could fertilize the entire state of Montana with it, or that this whole undertaking of reading "Wild Animus" isn't a complete waste of time that you could be spending on more valuable activities (i.e. castrating yourself with a handful of rusty nails, fighting a pack of rabid Dachshunds with nothing but a rubber chicken, jumping into a huge box of dirty syringes, swallowing a gallon of hydrochloric acid, electrocuting a Yuuzhan Vong with a car battery, running into an al-Qaeda hideout wearing nothing but a tuxspeedo and a shirt saying "Kiss me, I'm a Navy SEAL", etc.).Just keep pretending this book isn't the worst thing ever, and it won't be!

  • Shannon
    2019-05-04 05:59

    Someone handed me a free copy of this book (they were giving away tons, I'm not special) as I was walking on the quad of the college I attend. I have not read it. I have tried to start it, but I was bored by it. Sorry, freebook. Even you being free doesn't make me like you.

  • Eddie Watkins
    2019-05-13 09:59

    Venture capitalist puts id firmly in anus. Becomes furry. Blathers.

  • Sally Wolf
    2019-04-24 09:50

    Please note that before you read any more of this review that it does contain a spoiler this is done for a very good reason to save you the effort of reading this book all together. This book is about a man who gets high on drugs then he dresses like a Mountain Goat from head to foot (yes I said Mountain Goat) and goes into the wilderness where he gets eaten by a pack of wolves. From what I can tell the author of this book was trying to portray the power of the wilderness but it was lost in the stupor of a dug induced banter that made no sense at all. Please do not read this book do not recommend it to friends and if you happen upon it walk away quickly so that you are not tempted to even pick it up. I got this book out of a free bin and now I know why it was there.

  • Tim
    2019-05-06 08:57

    Was handed this book while walking through a Bay Area (SF CA) street fair. I think they were trying to drum up "word of mouth" business, but really, with a book this lame, I think they were misguided. Perhaps, if you're into drug-fueled hippie shamanistic naturalism, you'll enjoy the book. I did force myself to read the whole novel, but it was poorly written and painful to get through. The first clue it was going to be bad was that the prologue reveals the ending! That removed all tension or suspense. It was hard to care about his "journey" because I knew what was ultimately going to happen. Additionally, the protagonist is so misguided and enmeshed in his own reality, that I found nothing relatable (or even particularly believable). I don't want to say the character and the novel have no redeeming qualities, but they are so buried under bad prose and the character's complete idiocy, that they're hard to find and harder to care about.

  • Jon
    2019-05-05 07:48

    This was one of the wierdest books I have ever read. I'll tell you the ending. A column of lava erupts from beneath his feet while he is dressed in a goat costume and wolves are in mid-air tearing him apart. Yeah...

  • Catherine
    2019-05-13 07:02

    The copy I read, being an advance reading copy, doesn't have this cover.I sort of sought this book out, knowing a little of its Bookcrossing history, but not, at the time, just how bad many people thought it was. I'm sorry to say that I didn't think it was great either. I didn't think it was awful per se - I could see a certain fascination in the shamanistic blurring of identity - but it too coarse in its mysticism for my taste and with too little to counteract that. I could not empathise at all with the complete submission to Animus/descent into self-destructive madness (take your choice of perspective) of Sam/Ransom, nor could I understand the role Lindy played in his revelation or her willingness to suppport him in so many ways for so long. And that is coming from someone with an uncanny ability to find and stick with partners who leave her broke (for those of you who know him, I feel duty bound to point out that Spike is one of the few who hasn't). Nonetheless Lindy did at least have enough of a backstory to make a little sense of her holding on when she had no hope of changing him, whereas we saw nothing of the 'raw' Sam to explain his developing monomania, unless one chooses to 'blame' the drugs - a far too facile (and inadequate) plot device. That so many of the community in which he found himself were, albeit eventually, impressed was also incredible: yes, a Messiah may be the most unexpected person, but Ransom's 'message' did not seem to be communicated to others, even Lindy, in any convincing or powerful way. All in all, a shame - a compelling idea, with some wonderful descriptions of Alaska and real attempts to view things from the point of view of another creature (albeit with some slips), that is let down by characters that are totally subservient to the plot and style.

  • Angela
    2019-05-15 07:43

    Free was too costly

  • Cade
    2019-05-12 10:39

    Worst book ever. As many others have stated, it was also given to me. Got mine in Chicago outside the Art Institute. They had boxes of them. I didn't have anything else to read at the time. Honestly, I didn't finish it. I made it 1/2 way and just didn't care any more about acid trips, wolves, or goat costumes/hallucinations of wolves in goat costumes or whatever. I wanted to find the person that gave it to me and give it back. I actually went out and looked for them. They were gone.I have kept books, sold books, donated books, lended books and just given books away. This is the first book I can think of that I threw in the trash.Actually, the one interesting thing about this book is finding out where everyone else got their free copy. Who the hell paid to have these printed? There's got to be an interesting stoy there. Some publisher that knew they would lose even more if they tried to market it? Some ecentric rich old lady? A government fund?

  • Antof9
    2019-05-11 11:59

    This is an Advance Reading Copy (ARC), received free as the result of a partnership between BookCrossing and the publisher of the book.Read on the plane from Denver to Newark for a business trip. Unfortunately, I didn't enjoy the subject matter OR the way it was written.This book was probably written sometime between the 60's and 70's (although not published till recently), as it happily discusses drug use and doesn't refer in any way to current conveniences such as mobile phones.Summary: an LSD-using student tries to "find himself" in a very odd way. Over the course of his life, in various ways, he has an odd connection with a ram, and over time turns into/worships the ram. Unfortunately, as a messiah figure, Ransom (formerly known as Sam) isn't very messianic, as there is no one to save, no downtrodden, no nothing. Although it does appear that a group of people might be interested in him enough to follow him, he's really just too wacked out to follow.Odds & Ends: I've always thought it kind of hackneyed when the main character in a book is an author, and ends up writing a book with the same name as the title of the one you're reading. It was cheesy with Judith McNaught; it's too hard to suspend belief for this one. It really bothered me that there is rock climbing while under the influence of LSD. Real mountain/rock climbers wouldn't do something so dangerous, and often speak of the natural high they get sans chemicals. The author loves to "verb" nouns (which bugs me), he uses "alright" a million times, and chooses "regalia" as the description for the animal skin that Ransom wears, every time it is described.I didn't understand most of what the author was trying to accomplish. At one point, it seems as if he is saying something, but then it wanders away. . ."Do you mean people shouldn't have children?" Hank wondered."That's when we gave up," Calvin acceded with a sigh. "Stopped chasing our dreams and started nurturing theirs.""I get what you're saying." Wasilla Bill spoke to Ransom with his head bowed. "My heart's cold as stone. Only whiskey warms me. When I'm drunk, I remember.""This is sad." Doug's gaze darted among them, anxious and uncertain. His comment seemed to include both their malaise and Ransom's unthinkable remedy. "I can't believe having children is the end." There are passages like this all throughout the book. In other parts, it reads like a write-by-number novel: "You're everything to me now." Sam's voice was meek as a child's. "I want our love to be my religion."

  • Dorothy
    2019-05-12 04:57

    I really thought this book was going to fall into the "so bad it's good" category. I mean, come on, the tagline is basically "guy takes tons of drugs and thinks he's a sheep," it doesn't get better than that. I prepared myself for a twisted romp I could discuss with my friends and they would shake their heads, saying "gosh, Dorothy, you read the strangest things."Instead I found the disheartening tale of a mentally unstable, drug addicted sociopath who abuses and manipulates a damaged young girl (btw we constantly focus on how young she is/seems, to a creepy pedophile level) into abandoning her life and working multiple shitty jobs to fund his unsafe, unreasonable, unhealthy adventures into the mountains. Just as the main character strives to look past the facade of society, I looked past the "lol drug sheep" veneer and into the deeper, more disturbing elements of this book. Only once or twice does anyone suggest that he has a mental health problem, and it is blown over. He is even in a hospital, ranting naked in the reception area, and they allow him to leave and go about his life. Everyone constantly enables him beyond the point of reason, and some become a cult-like 'following.' At one point a conversation goes like this:Wife: Honey, maybe you should stop taking so much acid. I'm worried about you.Husband: YOU ARE LITERALLY DESTROYING MY LIFE. YOU ARE LITERALLY A PACK OF WOLVES HUNTING ME TO DEATH AND WILL NOT STOP UNTIL YOU FEAST ON MY FLESH. FINE, HAVE IT YOUR WAY, DEVIL WOLF WOMAN. I AM DONE WITH THIS MADNESS. I WILL BE HUMAN AGAIN. I'M JUST GONNA GO OVER HERE AND BURN MY MANUSCRIPTS THAT I HAVE BEEN WORKING ON FOR YEARS, I'M READY TO QUIT THIS DRUG SHEEP LIFE. *starts setting manuscript on fire.*Wife: Honey, wait. The drug sheep thing is important to you. Don't set that on fire. Here, have some more acid. Husband: I LOVE YOU. YOU ARE MY EVERYTHING. LET'S HAVE SEX.Wife: I will follow you to Alaska and do whatever you tell me. This is fine.Also, it could have used a bit more editing for grammar and repetitive word choices.

  • Kim
    2019-05-18 09:02

    One of the absolute worst books I've ever read. I do not know why it's still being read. Oh, that's right, our book group got a bunch of copies for FREE from the publisher along with smoked fish. I don't think any of us liked it the book, but the smoked fish was good. Most of us still refer to it as "that book". Kind of like "that woman" regarding an obnoxious woman. I saw a bunch of copies in the Friends of the Library saleroom. I take that as a sign we were not the only ones who found it icky.

  • Erika
    2019-05-13 07:35

    ***Disclaimer***If I were to recommend this book to a spiritual Shaman, I would give it 5 stars. However...I found the book somewhat ridiculous. It showcased stereotypical male self-centerdness even in the midst of a sacrificial relationship. The story was a complete disappointment without any overarching philosophical take-aways.

  • Chana
    2019-04-26 08:02

    This is a weird book. My thoughts in the first 3rd of the book: "LSD meets Extreme Sports" , "Farley Mowatt on Acid and Gone Mad", and "I Am Ram, See Me Leap!". In the second 3rd of the book I became very concerned for and creeped out by Lindy. In some way she seemed more the core of this book than Ransom (Sam) and the wolf-gang connection had me feeling spooked. In the last 3rd of the book I was really wondering if I knew what was going on at all and I spent as much time wondering about the author as I did his odd characters, including Animus. I think it is about the search for G-d, both within ourselves and without. It seems crazy in the book; but in our world most people are involved in this search and we don't call it crazy even though so many people have died through it. Yet how can we live without G-d? That connection seems essential. The book is spooky, weird, sad and very different from most books. (Today: I think that my assessment in the first third of the book was probably correct. The book is the result of LSD and maybe some high altitude oxygen deprivation.)

  • Jeruen
    2019-05-02 11:35

    This perhaps is the most pathetic and corniest book that I have ever read. I thought this was the worst book I have ever encountered, and I pondered on whether it even deserves a review or not, but hey, if I didn't like it, I better review it to save other people from the 315 pages of corny pretentious prose that it contains.This novel tells the tale of Sam, a Berkeley student who suddenly gets a fascination about rams. As the novel progresses, he and his girlfriend Lindy decide to leave Berkeley and move to Seattle and eventually Alaska, as he transforms himself into Ransom, a disciple of the god Animus, who resides in Mount Wrangell. Ransom goes on to climbing expeditions on to the mountain, which is obviously treacherous, but somehow he doesn't care. After all, he's a spiritual leader right? He writes chants and records them, while donning this full fur regalia, meant to transform him into a ram.Needless to say, this novel was set in the days when bell-bottom pants were in fashion, and so was LSD. Yup, to those readers who are still in touch with reality, this is just a narrative about a couple of people who were somehow delusional, aided by their acid trips. Ransom was just a victim of his own delusion, thinking that he was this disciple of some god residing in the mountain.Now, even if we suspend disbelief for a moment, which is really hard, this book still is not worth the paper it is written on. The characters are just so unrealistic. Really, Lindy, you're the most pathetic woman ever. Are you really fine with Ransom squandering all of your earnings from your two jobs as waitresses in order for him to climb up that stupid mountain? He's also able-bodied, right? Why doesn't he work? What do you see in Ransom that you keep slaving away for his delusional whims?And Ransom, wake up. You're delusional, you're egotistic, and you're out of touch with reality. That was the biggest take-home message I got from this book, if ever I were to take home one. Ransom is one lunatic and I would strive really hard not to be like him. One cannot be just like a mad scientist and believe whatever he wants to believe. That's why there's peer review. Ransom believed that there's a god in the mountain and he just went with it. How naive and pathetic. I am glad that he died in the end.There, I even gave the ending away, so that you won't have to go through what I went through. Do not read this book. It's a total waste of your time. Oh, did I forget to mention that this book was self-published and given to me free? I figured that shouldn't matter in the review, but somehow, given the quality of the prose, it is slowly becoming relevant.I am giving this 0.5 out of 5 stars, only because it's the lowest value I can give. If you want to read about an acid trip, read Naked Lunch by William S. Burroughs instead.

  • melydia
    2019-05-08 08:52

    I want to say something nice about this book, but I'm having trouble. I will admit that heavy drug-usage and self-centered obsession with finding oneself are not things I can relate to, but that was the least of my complaints. The prose was overwrought with awkward metaphors and obscure adjectives, so bad that I could just see the author congratulating himself on his cleverness and originality. The dialogue was so forced that it made soap operas sound Oscar-worthy. The description was so flowery that it interfered with the story, making the narration clunky and hard to follow. The story itself took leaps and bounds through time, skipping over massive amounts of necessary exposition, transition, and even conversation - I lost count of the times two people would say meaningless sentences and then the text would say that they understood exactly what the other meant. That's fine, but I the reader was still completely lost, and after a while I stopped caring.The characters evoked exactly no sympathy whatsoever: they're overemotional and completely irrational. The story revolves around Sam, a disillusioned Berkeley student in the late 1960s who has a strange obsession with rams and little concern for anything or anyone else but his own desires. His wife Lindy is a complete doormat, working a deadend job to fund her husband's drugs and solo trip to Alaska to research his book, incidentally called Wild Animus. The second she starts standing up for herself and asking, ever so timidly, that Sam (now called Ransom for some reason) make any effort in their relationship whatsoever, she breaks down crying and begs forgiveness for being such a bitch. She breaks down crying almost every scene she's in, come to think of it. Every character is constantly on the verge of an emotional collapse or breakthrough, which usually happens (the first time) very soon after the introduction of the character (then several times again after that). I wonder if everyone in the author's world is of weak emotional character except, of course, Ransom, who shows no emotions whatsoever.It's a train wreck of poor writing. Even the bolded sections, which I guess were supposed to be spiritual chants, were of the literary quality of your average 15-year-old would-be poet. For a few chapters it was funny, then it became tedious, then annoying. I labored on, telling myself I wanted to finish it so I could write a thorough and fair review, but then I realized that the only reason I was still reading was because the prologue strongly implied that Ransom would die by the end of the book. I ultimately decided - about halfway through the book - that such drivel was not worth my time when the only thing I had to look forward to was the offing of the main character, which would doubtless be as poorly written, uninspired, and pointless as the rest of the story.

  • Angela
    2019-05-14 05:50

    I tried. I really tried. But I gave up on Wild Animus at page 189.The story starts out with some promise, and even has one or two well-constructed sentences here and there, which leads me to believe that author Rich Shapero may learn to write someday. But the multitude of awfulness by far outweighed the few good bits. Execrable writing for the most part plus the gaping holes in the plot pushed the generous leeway I allow a first-time author past its outermost limit.Ultimately I did not like Ransom and his drug-induced hallucinations, and I did not believe in his vision.Plot problems: Where did these two broke college students get the money to leave Berkeley on a whim and move to Seattle? And how did they afford airfare to Alaska if Lindy was the sole bread winner? She waited tables! And let's not even get started on the character of Lindy -- wait, on second thought, yes, let's. Wimpish, cringing, insecure, verbally abusive, totally dependent on Ransom for validation of her existence and absurdly tolerant of his psychosis. Her character didn't ring true for a female UC Berkeley college student in 1968. Where was that woman's backbone? Her sense of self? And Ransom is plainly a candidate for a mental ward somewhere. One too many tabs of acid, my friend.The reaction of the people in Alaska during and after Ransom's first trip to the volcano did not make sense. He was up there prancing around nekkid in a "Ram Suit" and they didn't call the nearest sanitarium? They wrote him letters of admiration? It was at this point I called it quits.I appreciate Too Far Publications and BookCrossing for giving me the opportunity to read this. I only wish the book had been worth all the effort at promoting it.

  • LarkKerBerethrou
    2019-05-10 07:02

    I had never heard of this book when I picked it up, but as one who's always been intrigued by hippie culture, it seemed interesting. After reading he other reviews here on Goodreads I'm actually quite shocked that more people didn't like it. I barely noticed the drug use in this book, because to me that was not the author's intent. To me, this book was about finding yourself and exploring whatever strange routes that journey may lead you upon. Yes, there happened to be some drugs. But overall the feel I got from this book was not some drug-addled hippie nonsense as most of you seem to feel, but more of a getting-back-to-your-roots therian vibe. As someone who's very open minded and shamanistic myself, the things the character did in this book did not seem weird at all to me, but quite natural. My only problem with this book was the dialogue. It seemed very unrealistic and deep-- and by that I mean, people in real life just don't say certain things to each other, especially not men to other men saying deep poetic things. It would have been fine if the author had added those things as an afterthought, a character thinking quietly to himself or something, but definitely not dialogue. I give this book 4 out of 5 stars for creativity, original characters (HE DRESSES UP LIKE A RAM, you can't say that's not original), the overall theme which I found to be inspiring, and the fact that it is one of very few books with a therian character. It does lose a point for the cheesy dialogue though.

  • Myridian
    2019-05-02 11:02

    This book was self indulgent dribble. It was just interesting enough for me to actually finish, but I really disliked most of the characters, and felt no sympathy for their story or their struggles. In essence I thought they were all tragically stupid, and it's people like this that waste most of the resources of the world. Essentially the story is about a young man who is convinced that he's tapped into God (through acid, of course), and he does get a number of people (including a dependent personality disorder girlfriend) to buy into his acid trip, but ends up committing suicide in the process. And the amazing thing is that this whole story is presented as if it has some heroic value. The author's picture is on the back of the book and he looks like a fairly reasonable guy. I kept expecting him to apologize for the absurd stupidity of his story, but apparently he thought there was value in it. I can't see why.

  • Susan
    2019-05-21 10:40

    It had so much potential with topics like disillusionment, relationships, nature, emotions, running away from it all, a gorgeous setting in the Alaskan wilderness. And then it just went way beyond odd when the main character evolved into a wolf.This was no tale of the macabre, instead what it was likely supposed to be was a story full of hidden meaning and messages. Unfortunately it became instead simply a novel that was lost when the writer hurled us over the edge. Disappointment was my overall feeling when, after reading half and skimming more, I finally set the book aside unfinished.Imagination is one thing but hitting the reader over the head with it is another. I'd love to read something by the same author if he decided subtle is better than outlandish.

  • Manday
    2019-05-11 06:34

    I understand why this is the worst rated book on Good Reads (that is also why I read it, but that is a different story). What starts out as indulgent hippie drivel turns into ridiculous nonsense. The main characters are an acid-dropping mentally ill man who is convinced he is becoming a ram and a submissive pathetic enabling girlfriend who blindly follows him, sex being to be the only thing that holds their relationship together in any way shape or form. I seriously don't even know why this book exists.

  • Jason Whittington
    2019-04-22 11:58

    The main character is often taking drugs to induce visions. Throughout the book, I felt the author was also heavily involved with drugs during the conceptualization and writing. I did not become attached to any characters. I never comprehended any sort of overall message, lesson, or value to the story. I only finished reading it because I couldn't believe the book could be as bad as it was, and I convinced myself there must be some twist before the end of the story that would make it all better, but it never happened.

  • Judy
    2019-05-18 10:03

    OMG, this was truly awful! I can't say anything good about the actual story -- it consists of one long acid trip that ends, naturally, in disaster. But since Shapero uses the prologue of his novel to divulge the ending, the remaining 300 pages are totally not worth the trouble. Don't waste your time. The one redeeming aspect of the audio version is that Peter Coyote is doing the reading. I only got to page 85.

  • Laura
    2019-05-02 04:50

    I couldn't stand this book. The descriptions of the scenes were way too detailed and the main character's thoughts and writings were tedious and not interesting. I couldn't relate to the what he was saying. I found the entire book tedious and painful to read and ended up skimming to actually finish it.

  • Peter Derk
    2019-05-09 09:48

    I barely read it. I mean, it doesn't seem like it's for me. Way too mystical.I DID write a pretty long column about just what the hell this book is and why it shows up EVERYWHERE.The Legend of Zelda: A Link To My Column

  • bup
    2019-04-22 05:33

    The poorly told story of a self-absorbed, girlfriend-dragging-down-with-him narcissist, and the people that fall in love with him.

  • Oskari
    2019-04-24 07:58

    I picked up this book from a University Book Exchange shelf solely because I thought the name and the cover of the book were cool. I also was intrigued by the shamanistic-mystic journey of self-discovery that the back cover of the book promised.In the end that promise fell several steps short. While the basic idea, attempting to get closer to nature and your "true self" via drug-induced trance isn't a bad plot, its execution didn't work for me at all. The parts where Sam/Ransom was "transformed" were steeped with fancy words and inexplicable incidents that both felt awkward and out of their depth. Profoundness turned to obscurantism and slight cringe.The characters didn't appeal to me at all. Sam/Ransom himself seemed, in the end, to be just a druggie with a possible mental health issue and a deathwish. His obsession with his self-discovery seemed more and more to take a form of dangerous delusions than genuine advance towards the inner self. This might have been a deliberate motive of the author, but I felt that the original intent of the writer felt more genuine than what the actual end-result was.The protagonist's relationship with his girlfriend was more abusive than committing. Again I feel that their relationship was supposed to be difficult and sacrificing, but it only came out as Sam abusing Lindy, dragging her more and more into his delusion and strange cult than keep her as a companion on their journey.The ending was actually somewhat brave, the author was not afraid to deny his protagonist their prize. It was a bit confusing though, because a part of the ending was put right at the start, so at the same time the ending is spoiled, but you are also required to go back and read it again at the beginning, in case you forgot it.I'm not against portrayal of unhealthy issues and phenomena in books. If the book would have been about a mentally ill person dragging his loved ones into a dangerous cult, it might have been an interesting read. Now, however, the author has seemed to intend wildly different conclusions that I were able to take from the book, so the result only seems hamfisted, questionable and bad.

  • Rabbit {Paint me like one of your 19th century gothic heroines!}
    2019-05-16 08:59

    While this book is not bad, I'm just not feeling this right now. DNF on page 100.ETA: Actually the more I think about it, I actually didn't like it that much. It had potential, but all I can think about is how the main female character needs therapy and an anti-depressant. The main character definitely needs therapy and psychiatric medication. I like fucked up characters to a degree but let's be real. This isn't one of them.Also spirituality =/= insanity, thank you very much. I mean I'm a mentally-ill witch and polytheist but it doesn't look like this. The characters are full-on delusional* and they feed off each other. It was depressing as fuck to read.This could be the author's main point, but I highly doubt it.*when I say delusional, I mean in the psychiatric term, which in certain mental illnesses it means that you hold certain facts to be true, but they aren't (for example, believing people can read your mind if they look into your eyes- one of mine, actually) but you can manage them with logic which brings you back into reality. At least that's how I manage them. I am not Schizophrenic but I am Bipolar (which can also lead to having delusions). I didn't mean to turn this into a rant. Sorry.ETA(2): My partner got this at a used book store that she has credit to get stuff for free. So we didn't pay for this at all.

  • Krysti
    2019-05-19 08:01

    I picked up this book hoping it would be something along the lines of Hatchet or Into the Wild, and since the reader was the same as the one who read for Hatchet, I thought I was on the right track. The back of the book made me think it was going to be about wilderness adventure. Well, this book was really disapointing and I could not wait for it to be over. The main character in the book was a sefish, self-absorbed jerk! He practically forced his girlfriend to take the "acid tabs" he was addicted to. He made her work really hard to provide them with the income to support their home and his drug addiction while he sat at home thinking about rams and wolves, or wandered around outside. I can't blame the guy for everything though...the girl should have dumped him LONG ago! The book was mostly annoying, repetitive, and a waste of time. I kept thinking "uh-huh, yahh...okay" sarcastically throughout the book. Save yourself some time and don't read it.

  • Ghyllee
    2019-05-19 07:47

    I did finish this listen, but was not a huge fan. Watching this kid (view spoiler)[ descend into madness wasn't fun. (hide spoiler)]