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In the beginning, there was wreckage. Dane Perry’s mother was dead, and the father who always said he’d amount to nothing blamed him. Dane swore he’d become something. He would be someone.In the middle, there was escape. Rebuilding his life from the ashes of his mother’s memory, Dane found success as a respected surgeon, and love in the form of Craig Dahl, a talented artisIn the beginning, there was wreckage. Dane Perry’s mother was dead, and the father who always said he’d amount to nothing blamed him. Dane swore he’d become something. He would be someone.In the middle, there was escape. Rebuilding his life from the ashes of his mother’s memory, Dane found success as a respected surgeon, and love in the form of Craig Dahl, a talented artist who became his everything. But there was also darkness, lies, and a crumbling foundation just waiting for the ground to shift.In the end, there was a spectacular fall, illusions shattered, and for Dane, nothing more to lose. He was broken, damaged, and left with fierce demons. But from the bottom, the only way left is up. Dane renewed friendships and salvaged his career. The only thing he cannot replace is Craig. But Dane has a plan. Brick by brick, his foundation is rebuilt, and all he needs is for Craig to listen one last time.In the beginning again, there’s hope and tatters of love. Can Dane repair the damage with Craig? Can he rescue the only thing he amounted to that ever truly mattered?This book contains vivid descriptions of symptoms of PTSD and events that can cause anxiety. Reader discretion advised.

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The Anatomy of Perception Reviews

  • Baba
    2018-12-20 19:57

    3 stars. Review posted March 15, 2015Favorite quote:In that context, I was waiting to no avail for Dane to be that outstanding patient advocate. However, just ignore my comment because the story obviously wasn't intended to go in that direction.Me before reading The Anatomy of Perception:COVERGASM. COVERGASM. COVERGASM. COVERGASM. COVERGASM. COVERGASM.COVERGASM. COVERGASM. COVERGASM. COVERGASM. COVERGASM. COVERGASM.COVERGASM. COVERGASM. COVERGASM. COVERGASM. COVERGASM. COVERGASM. COVERGASM. COVERGASM. COVERGASM. COVERGASM. COVERGASM.I love this cover.I also love this author's work. Usually.Me after reading The Anatomy of Perception:This book is still causing me one of the best COVERGASMS I've ever had. Also, I still love AJ's work. Usually. But…I have said this before and I will say it again. I have no qualms whatsoever being sincere in my reviews. However, there are times when it sucks being honest, esp. when I have to review a book that didn't live up to my expectations and is written by a favorite author. Believe me, I would have loved to gush over The Anatomy of Perception and, since my reading year hasn't been stellar so far, I was hoping for a mind-blowingly great read. Yet it's a sad fact that AJ's latest book couldn't rock my book world. I'm also aware that it's not fair to compare every future work of AJ to her Power Exchange series (Power Exchange, Safeword, Consent). But I will regardless. Neither the story nor the characters of The Anatomy of Perception were on a par with her Power Exchange series, let alone outmatch this outstanding series."I love you, and I want the world to know it. Even if you need time, it doesn't change how I feel about you."He kissed me, his hands threading into my hair and clenching into fists, my scalp stinging as he pulled me in. He devoured me, bringing his leg up and around my hip to trap me against him. He electrified me, delving with his tongue like my mouth was his breath of life, and he wanted to own me.He did own me. He always had.The story is told in two concurrent timelines. Dane, who is not out and proud, meets Craig, a hot street artist, in October 2005. Though when Craig wants to paint Dane, he declines. "I'm sorry. I really can't. Maybe I'll see you around though.""Me or my ass?" he asked, dropping his volume and giving me a wink. So he had seen me checking out the goods.(…)"Both." It was the best parting line I'd ever had, so I took advantage, chuckling as I walked away.The next morning when Dane is on his way to class, he stumbles upon a commotion, people taking pictures of…Dane himself whose face is plastered billboard sized on the side of a concrete building. Dane, for obvious reasons that readers will get to know about, is not out for any kind of publicity and is eager to remove the graffiti as soon as possible. He asks his best friend (and beard) Holly to lend him a helping hand. Over the course of the next few months, Craig is happily drawing Dane's face all over Manhattan and Dane keeps removing the pictures. In April 2006 they meet again at the occasion of yet another huge graffiti of Dane. They have a cup of coffee and start to date.Due to his PTSD and anxiety disorder, Dane had to bury his dream of becoming a surgeon and is working as a physical therapist instead.Favorite part of the entire book:(view spoiler)["You see? You know how it feels to be on the opposite side of the chart, to be the vulnerable one lying under scratchy cotton blankets with a gown on and your ass exposed to the world." He waved a large hand and smiled. "Well, metaphorically speaking. My point is, a good doctor knows the multi-syllable words, the treatments for this injury or that disease, and the symptoms to look for in diagnosing someone's sickness. A good surgeon isn't afraid to cut into a human body to fix what's broken. A great surgeon knows all that and how to administer the information and treatment in a humane manner. You, Dr. Perry, will never forget what it's like to be a patient, and an incredibly vulnerable one at that. I suspect, even with your change in focus, that alone will elevate you above your peers. So you came into your current position a little sideways," he minimized. "When you get your feet beneath you again, your career will be something remarkable. I wouldn't be a very good department chair if I didn't recognize that and do what I could to help you back into this hospital in whatever department I can get you. (hide spoiler)]To be continued…check out the picture / quote at the beginning of my review.I felt the beginning was very promising, though it's unfortunate that the entire plot was impaired by a long-winded narrative. I wanted a 'tighter' story. Also, I thought the tale wasn't that compelling and somewhere along the way it simply lost its momentum. To be fair, I wasn't outright bored by it but it was too easy to put the book down. That never happened with Ben. I have such fond memories and simply devoured that man series. Here, however, I was actually glad for the story to be over. I know that does sound harsh but it's the truth. Emotion is center-stage for me personally. Reading a book means I live and breath emotion. If I don't feel "it" and if I don't really connect or care for the characters, then a novel sinks down to the vast sea of mediocrity. I needed and wanted a boatload of groveling on the part of Dane. He didn't really have to work so hard to get Craig back. I needed better palpable and blazing chemistry. The kind of chemistry I can feel in my fingertips and is giving me goosebumps. The kind of chemistry that leaves me breathless with anticipation at their impending climax (pun absolutely intended). Get your dirty mind out your gutter please.Even the sex (no BDSM in this book which was perfectly fine by me, BTW) left me more or less indifferent and that's not good. Though that might be the jaded reader rearing its ugly head. Well..."That's so stupid," he said thickly. Finally, he looked at me, his eyes shiny. Shadows obscured the rest of his expression, but his eyes were kind and sad. "I would have helped. You know I would have been beside you the whole time."Agreed! I also thought that the moment when everything fell apart and they split was so anticlimactic. Instead of empathizing with Dane, it made me dislike him extremely. Dane also acted quite melodramatic a couple times which, basically, never appeals to me.Anyway, I would like to make it clear that I didn't mind the two concurrent timelines. Fact was, I found that concept interesting but it's unfortunate that I didn't feel dazzled, neither by the characters nor the plot. From the blurb:In the end, there was a spectacular fall, illusions shattered, and for Dane, nothing more to lose. He was broken, damaged, and left with fierce demons. But from the bottom, the only way left is up. Dane renewed friendships and salvaged his career. The only thing he cannot replace is Craig. But Dane has a plan. Brick by brick, his foundation is rebuilt, and all he needs is for Craig to listen one last time.Not only the cover but also the blurb let my expectations shoot sky-high. But rebuilding that foundation brick by brick wasn't intense enough for me. It didn't consume me the way I was hoping for and, quite frankly, the forgiveness part happened too easily for my liking.In any event, it might be another case of it's me not the book. Please don't let my opinion put you off. You might even end up loving it. It's not a bad read by any means, just not what I was anticipating."There's inspiration in devastation."I would sign this quote without missing a beat because I know it's true.["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>

  • Evil Cat
    2018-12-19 16:01

    One extra star for an exceptionally good story idea, but the execution was a complete failure.I'm not going to repeat the blurb, but a broken person trying to put the pieces back together and try for a second chance? Awesome idea for a story. Awesome. Unfortunately we never really get to see that struggle. And the way the sequence of events are put together is more focused on Dane as the victim of a really shitty past, rather than seeing Dane bottom out and then struggle to recover. This is written with the chapters alternating between the present and the slow progression of Dane's past from 2005 up until the moment of crisis that drove him and Craig apart in 2012. The pacing is slaughtered by two things: the irritating, repetitious push-pull of constant flashbacks that reiterate and flesh out whatever Dane says or thinks about his past; and the attempted slow build of the initiating events that led to the crisis. Rose was attempting, I think, to have both story lines, the fracture and the redemption arcs, climax at the same point in the book, but all it does is make this very long book drag. It was an ambitious plan, but the way it's written robs Dane's present of any power, makes it a bit distanced and superficial, because you don't get to see why he fell apart, that happens later in the book, or any part of his efforts to put himself back together. That two years is missing out of this book. The story starts, poof! with Dane trying to get Craig back after having done "something" unforgivable a couple of years ago. The details of that initiating crisis aren't revealed until very late in the story (although you've got a pretty clear idea of what happened before you're 20% in because the author has given lots of general outline). The breakdown and crisis should feed the redemption story. It doesn't make a whole lot of sense when one doesn't lead into the other, but instead runs parallel to it. As a result of all the dropped hints, half told bits and foreshadowing, the story felt mostly done about the 50% mark, which leaves the last 50% as an exercise in fill in the blanks. I skimmed a lot of the last half of this one because I was bored. Honestly, I didn't care about Craig, or Dane or whether they got back together. They didn't feel real to me and the constant jumping around kept me from feeling any attachment to the story.The other problem(s) that bring this down close to a one star are the flatness of the side characters and the superficial, easy tropes that weaken a great redemption, second chances arc. To the point where I wasn't engaged and didn't care about what happened between Dane and Craig. The best friend (beard) Helen is the standard way too helpful supportive female. She is bookended by the gay collecting ambitious manipulative female coworker. I know I harp on this, but there is no reason not to have fleshed out, balanced female side characters rather than various versions of madonna and whore. I'm tired of it and I will consistently mark down books where I see it.This book badly needed a good developmental editor, because the ideas of the story had enormous potential, but instead it felt gimmicky and clunky.

  • Wyckedone
    2019-01-10 22:16

    Pardon me, but, who the hell rates a book less than five stars before it's out and before you even read it, huh? Fucking dilettantes.

  • ¸. • * ° *❧Gwendolyn❧°**★•°**★
    2019-01-13 22:56

    OMG PURE SWEETNESS & YET SO MUCH SADNESS IS INSIDE..Is it worth the tears.Yes!I laughed , I cried and I rejoiced....and when he said.....“I want you to fuck me so hard I can taste you. I want you to fold me in half and take me to that heaven you always found when I fucked you. I want you to love fucking me so much there’s no other option but to be with me again and again, to wake up with me, and to paint that beauty on our souls for as long as we both shall live"Be still my heart...sigh....In reading this book I found that it captivated my romance loving heart from page 1. I loved how these guys fell in love. I loved how they met. And...I loved how they loved. Cuz...he wanted so bad...he said this ...."I wanted our papery-skinned, wrinkly fingers tangled together while we sat in matching rocking chairs on some front porch overlooking a beach in Florida, because we’d retired there, reminiscing about the time we left a trail of clothes from the door to the bedroom. I wanted the whole happy ending, and not just the orgasmic kind. And I was willing to do anything with him to make it so"Did he make it so? (view spoiler)[ Yes!(hide spoiler)]This book take's a certain mood...there is NO action ( like Safeword) but, the MCs are lovable you get to know them slowly. This is a lazy days read. I loved it. BUT, PLEASE BEWARE!!This writer seems to have a death in every book I have read so far, and that I'd NOT MY THING. Also,This book has-Flashback's in every other chapter.An unbelievably crazy typical Bit*h of a villain. And, some piss me off sadness. (view spoiler)[Dylan(hide spoiler)] RIP. * SOB* A.J . Rose why do you keep doing this to me! * SOB*It also has-Manties!Greatness within the storylineSolid, well Nurtured Writing.Feels that Captured my Heart. A Beautiful Artistic touch.And a message of Peace, Love and OMG, Hope ( I love the father outcome). It has a sensitive touch to PTSD, abuse, and mental illness. And, it is an easy read. That is also heartbreakingly sad (see picture above) . But, I truly adored every page and every word. But, my mind to believe that a transition from active resident surgeon MD to PT Physical Therapist? That simply did NOT work for me. I hated that part because he deserved the surgeon....after what he went through. But, gosh, there is so much to love about this book. And, one of those things is that this book puts Art at the forefront. We have an Artist & Doctor~ Anatomy of perception.....such a cleaver title. This book awesomely places emphases on the creative and beautiful mind of an autism babe. I love that so much that I find myself over looking any minor flaws and embracing the Beauty of the book, and in this book there is a lot of beauty. Inside and out.["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>["br"]>

  • Mare SLiTsReaD Reviews
    2019-01-13 20:14

    2.5 starsI love the stories of lovers reuniting. I love angst. I love thefeelings. I love the heartbreak. The fishers. The makeups to breakups to makeups. The chemistry. Butterflies. Tears.Emotion. I wish I could tell you I got all that ^^^ in this book. But I didn't. But I will say I stuck through and didn't DNF. There was just so many things that I found wrong and little that I found right. Like Sabitcha. Seriously???? Do people like her even exist??? Im all for forgiveness. But I think our boy Craig couldn't have had a little more back bone. Or like an epic fight. You know where words are thrown and there are tears streaming down your face? Yah didn't happenAnd I couldn't get a real grasp on Dane. I wish I could havefeltall his emotions but I didnt :( Alas, I didnt feel the connection btwn the 2 MCs and that is a BIG BIG HUGE thing for me while reading. Mare~Slitsread

  • Diverse
    2018-12-18 20:00

    Just breathe! That's what I kept telling myself throughout this amazing and emotional story. Then I found myself saying it to Dane and Craig. The Anatomy of Perception is a plunge into the many shades of true love. True love isn't all flowers, candy, hugs, and kisses. Sometimes it's cruel. Sometimes between the hearts and hugs there is lies and regret. There's pain, always pain. Not always for you, more so for those who you love so deeply. Reading Dane and Craig's story was like being impaled with a knife of misfortune only to be embraced with something much stronger than the evils of the world. This is a story about strength. It's a story for anyone who's had to climb up from rock bottom. Superheros don't always wear capes. Sometimes they wield a scalpel or a paintbrush. There are forces on this earth that are beyond our control. You can't count on every day being perfect but you can choose who you can count on to get through the unknown. I love this story so much that I cry just writing this review. AJ Rose has a knack for just getting it right. She understands life, she understands love in all it's forms and because of that she translates it so very well. This is a must read. A must own!

  • Kazza
    2019-01-13 20:59

    First off, I wanted to love this book. Look at the cover and the blurb. It sounds and looks right up my alley but it did not translate for me. Too much melodrama and not enough connection with the MCs, and don't even start me on the bitch that is Sabrina. I don't like bitchy shrew secondary characters. Vacuous, vapid, narcissistic women who don't use their brains, which they have, no, better to use your bitchiness and your body. It started interestingly enough but the chemistry was lacking between Dane and Craig. The past and present were repetitive and atonement did not occur as I would have liked, and when things were discussed or covered, I was no longer interested.There is a great idea here and with some lines drawn through a number of situations, stripped down, more raw and real, this could have been a very, very good book. In depth SPOILER review at

  • Lucy
    2019-01-16 19:20

    3-3.5 starsWhat worked for me.....I liked Dane and his family drama. Even though he wasn't in the book much I loved his brother, he was my favorite character. I liked the beginning of the novel and I liked the final resolution between Dane and his father.What didn't work for me....The cartoon villain. She wasn't fleshed out and she ended up just bring your typical bitchy evil female character you find often in mm romances. Yawn. The in between of the novel got too slow at times.I did not like the back and forth between past and present. I really liked the present chapters but the past chapters felt repetitive since I already knew from the present chapters what had gone down, I wasn't really interested in more details.Overall it was a nice reading experience and I was happy the two main characters found their way back.

  • Jaycee Edward
    2018-12-17 22:55

    AJ Rose’s books are some of the hardest books on the planet to write reviews for, because the threads of her stories are always so interwoven that it’s almost impossible to say something that isn’t going to be a spoiler. Maybe it’s because she knits.This was not my typical AJ Rose reading experience. I usually block off release day and spend the entire day reading cover to cover. This time I didn’t have that luxury and I ended up reading this in small segments. It’s for that reason only, I had a little trouble following the timeline in the beginning. Most readers will have no problem following the jumps back and forth in time. (Those usually annoy the heck out of me, by the way, but for some reason, in Anatomy of Perception, I actually enjoyed them for the first time ever.)Since I can’t really discuss any specifics of the story, I’ll take this opportunity to tell you what I love about AJ’s writing. She has a way of selecting THE perfect words and using them create a movie in my mind as I read. Some authors paint me a picture with their words. AJ shoots video.“’I thought I was saving you from me.’ He detonated, arms flailing in an explosion of anger and pain and disbelief.”“…his excited expression melted like a Dali clock.”As I went through my list of highlights to write this, I realize I’d highlighted HUGE chunks of text – not just passages and paragraphs - but PAGES of text that moved me, usually to anger or tears. I highlighted practically the entire scene involving Craig, Dane, Holly and Braden at a restaurant. It led me to send Ms. Rose a message on Facebook in the middle of the night saying, “What is it with you and bathroom stalls?” (Still haven’t recovered from that scene with Jackson in Queers).There’s a lot of angst, but humor sprinkled throughout. A scene with Craig’s autistic students had me giggling in glee. But just like in real life, one moment I was cracking up over a student asking Craig, “What’s happening in Dane Perry’s pants that you want to see?” and the next moment AJ blindsided me with Craig stating, “I’ve been talking to Dane again for two months and five days.” Doesn’t sound like much, but trust me - in the context of the story, it was like someone had thrown a live grenade in the classroom.I don’t know what was harder to read: watching Dane slip into the depths of hell or watching Craig watch him fall. Leave it to AJ Rose to tackle slipping into the grips of mental illness - in first person. Again… the choice of words here is huge.“…a pending explosion felt imminent. The worms, they squirmed; the icicle, it froze and pierced; and the clock, it ticked in the dark. Outside the windows, nameless judges stared in at us, leaving me exposed and raw even as I tried to burrow and burrow and burrow into Craig’s sunshine.”“My insides were a mess, as though I’d eaten a slab of Jell-o and gotten on a roller coaster.” (How perfect is that??)I adored Dane and I felt myself trying to help Craig and Holly hang onto him when he was slipping. And Craig…? I loved Craig from the moment he appeared on the page and that love grew and grew and grew. Just thinking of him now is bringing me to tears. He’s not perfect, but, dammit, he’s got a beautiful soul.It’s obvious how deeply Dane loves Craig. He says himself, “I had Craig, who I loved so much I’d ripped myself in half to set him free….” But I realize now, I have no highlighted words of love from Craig to Dane - no giant passages or pages of declarations, but that’s okay, because now that all the threads have been woven together, I see that this story was maybe never really about how much Dane loved Craig - but how much Craig loved Dane.Oh, and if you follow AJ on social media, you’ll get a big kick out of the description of Craig’s new therapist. I was laughing through my tears.

  • Bev
    2018-12-17 23:17

    Not my favourite of AJ's work but her writing is per usual. For me this seemed to drag in places which is why I took so long to read it, although I certainly wasn't phased by the timeline jumps. Craig I loved from the start, he was very open and forthright in his opinions. Dane was much more guarded and difficult to get to grips with, mainly I think because he had so many secrets and either couldn't or wouldn't share them with Craig, the man he'd lived with for 4 years or so, although it has to be said that when you read the story and get to know Dane's background, you'll understand entirely why he was so reticent. Glad there was a HEA though, and 4 stars from me.

  • ♣ Irish Smurfétté ♣
    2019-01-03 18:06

    3.5 Intriguing stars on Prism Book Alliance®I was somewhat intrigued as this started, puzzle pieces of Dane Perry’s life randomly revealed. Jumps back and forth between the past and present gave it a dreamlike quality, a nonlinear revelation of those puzzle pieces. It also meant it took a while to get a handle on the intended focus for this story. The more I read, the less important the flashback chapters felt. Events referenced in the present are then explained in great detailed in the past. Unfortunately, for me, it was unnecessary and lessened the impact of those events taking place in the here and now, the built up tension lost.Dane has been through a lot, his entire life a series of incredible personal challenges. He’s internalized them, like most people do, and they’ve influenced every decision he’s made, especially in regards to personal relationship, no matter the type. How does he work himself back into his own life? How does he try to help the ones he loves in understanding it all? Understanding him? This is where the story was strongest, when focused on the how and when and with whom Dane was struggling to do these very things, in the present.There was a lot of research that went into writing this story: how hospital admin functions, internships and physical therapy, medical conditions, both physical and mental, and psychiatry. It all helped build the world of this story but it also overwhelmed it. The casualties were the characters and my ability to remain connected to them. Further, emotional gains made became emotional gains lost. Dane’s story is one of someone working extremely hard at overcoming their fears, especially those embedded by the very people who were supposed to treasure him and did not. Craig is the man who… well, he just might be the one tool Dane is missing in his mission to change his life, make it better, make it his again. Actually, not again, but finally. I don’t want to give anything away but they’re good together when they’re together. Compassionate. Caring. Forgiving. Truthful, no matter the end result. This is the biggest reason the chapters that take place in present day drew me in when they did. This was the story that was begging to be told, to be the star in the spotlight, not shuffled to the side of the stage, alternating with the past.Rose’s writing is always smooth, confident, and utterly honest. No exception here. I just wish the well written story had grabbed a hold of me, making it impossible to forget, giving me that feeling of oh my gosh I want to get back to reading this book. For me, that didn’t happen here. I was curious but not compelled. This could truly be a case of it’s not you, it’s me. It feels like that must be the case given the evident research conducted, the depth of pain Dane carries, the excellent writing and all of the rest. For me, this didn’t punch the ticket but, given Rose’s skills, I’m still glad that I read it.

  • Lala
    2019-01-06 17:51

    3.75 stars.Overall, this was a solid, well-written story, with fleshed-out characters. I loved reading the hospital scenes..Dane being in his element, doing his job was fascinating. I didn't care much for the two parallel storylines, past and present. Skipping years of the beginning of Dane&Craig's relationship made me miss the chemistry between the heroes. Aside from that, the book was too long-winded..I'd prefer it to be tighter. At times it just got a bit boring, though not to the point I would consider abandoning the book. There were too many man-tears and two villains who turned out to be not quite as evil as I would have expected. On the plus side, I adored Holly. She brought the much needed lightness into this book.

  • Jules Lovestoread
    2018-12-26 17:19

    Dane Perry may have made something of himself – graduating med school and becoming a promising surgical resident – but underneath it all, he’s a mess. The really cool part about reading this book, though, is that when we first meet Dane, he’s already well on his way to getting his life back together. I love how AJ Rose begins her new novel The Anatomy of Perception. The start of this book means everything…Is it the beginning of the rest of their lives? Or, just one more thing that Dane is going to have to survive? SEE MY FULL REVIEW at The Novel Approach -

  • Laura Miller
    2019-01-06 22:15

    really wonderful and movingThis is such a wonderful and moving story and so beautifully wrtten. This story is a light read. It's fully of sorrow and pain, but also love, hope and forgiveness. Tears will fall, so be prepared. Buy this book, read it and enjoy.

  • Yuki
    2019-01-04 20:51

    The Anatomy of Perception was a good read, but I can't help the feeling there was some wasted potential.I don't know. Something seemed off.3.5 stars rounded down.

  • Jennifer
    2018-12-16 17:11

    just couldn't get into it

  • K
    2018-12-27 22:02

    Well…I don’t really know where to start. The Anatomy of Perception, by AJ Rose, is, without a doubt, a thought-provoking, emotional, soul-empowering, book. It will rock you to your core. It will squeeze your guts so tightly and it will pull on every heartstring. And then…just as quickly, you will be filled with hope that forgiveness is a reachable outcome. That love this powerful will have no choice but to prevail.When I finished this last night I, immediately, went to the kitchen and took my migraine medicine. I knew with the amount of tears that poured down my face and the gut-wrenching emotions I was trying to hold back that a migraine by morning was imminent. But, I couldn’t stop reading. I had to know that Dane was going to be okay. I had to know if Craig could forgive one more time.AJ Rose is a master for taking characters apart, piece by piece, sinking them to their lowest and giving them the skills to pull themselves up from the ashes, and persevere. When we meet Dane he has already went through the deepest and darkest hell and is resurrecting his way back. The question is will Craig listen. And, if he does, will he forgive? Or, is it too late?The story goes from present day to past, and back to present. I’m not usually a fan for this type of plot, however, in order to get the full impact of events – it worked. It, also, helped to relieve some of my stress because I knew Dane was recovering. He is working SO hard to get past his issues of PTSD. He is seeking counseling, and he’s incorporated exercises to his daily life that will help him overcome his triggers. It’s a constant battle he fights trying to keep his demons from taking over.Dane’s home life was a mass of destruction. His father is an SOB, a bastard, a homophobe, a bigot, and a violent drunk. Think of the worst and that will be Mr. Davis Perry. You are led to think that had Dane’s mother lived his father would have been a different, better man. I’m not so sure that he deserves that much credit. Dane’s saving grace was his best friend, Holly, and his brother, Dylan. The only two people Dane could trust, till Craig.One reason this book resonated so strongly with me is I live an hour and a half from Dane’s home. I know how simple-minded, strong-willed the personalities of this state can be. I know the bigotry that runs rampant and the people who seem to have no filter for what they think, or say. When Dane makes his escape I was elated with joy for him. He’s not out of the woods though as his father made sure his threats would be carried out if he was found.Dane has strong convictions about his life and where he wants to go and he succeeds in carrying those out. When he walks up to a street crowd and sees Craig, an artist, he can’t help but notice he has very fine attributes (nice ass) but he can’t afford to become distracted. When he walks home later and finds his face painted on a cinderblock wall, he’s surprised but it pleases him that he made that type of an impression on the handsome artist. It’s not long though before his paranoia surfaces and he can’t get it removed fast enough. He can’t risk his father finding him and ruining the life he is building.And Craig, love his heart. He is amazing, and talented, and gorgeous, and kind, and compassionate. He and Dane are together for 6 years before all hell breaks loose. Craig doesn’t understand because Dane keeps so much of his life a mystery. He doesn’t understand when Dane starts freaking out that his dad is close by. Your heart will literally be torn into pieces at the devastation that takes place. You will be pulled in many directions but ultimately you want Dane to get help, you understand why he does some of the things he does, yet over here is Craig who doesn’t have a clue and you want to reach in and grab him and never let go.And then there are the secondary characters. AJ doesn’t cut corners in her books. If you are a friend, sibling, co-worker, or whatever the role is, it is apparent she puts a lot of thought into that character. They are strong, intelligent, resilient, and they have a voice that needs to be heard. Holly, Dane’s best friend, is amazing. She has been with him throughout every milestone in his life and every roadblock. She is his life support and she helps Dane conquer his demons. If he can’t, she will.Then you have those people you despise. You know their game and how their mind works. It’s all about them and what you can do for them. Sabrina Ballard is a med student and in the same program as Dane. She is ruthless in her pursuit for him. She latches onto him day 1 and never let’s go. She doesn’t care that he is gay and in love with his partner. Dane didn’t confide personal information right away, but finding out he was gay made her that much more clingy. She reminds me of those girls in the movie, Mean Girls. To your face she is funny, charming, and best friend material. To your back she can’t stab you fast enough. If you ever cross her you will see her fangs. I hated her and I was thrilled when Dane finally gets to say his peace. It was a magical and brilliant moment.This book is outstanding. When I read a story written by AJ Rose I feel like she has my heart in her hands. The descriptive narrative she possesses is unparalleled and distinctive.He showed me beauty and love in a world that before him had been bleak and harsh, like thorns that pierced and tore to whims I’d never understood or been able to predict, let alone, avoid. Craig showed me to look a little farther up the stem, because above the thorns was the bloom, breathtaking and absolutely attainable if one just opened their eyes and reached higher.If you like stories with a lot of depth, a lot of insight, and a plot that makes you think, gets your heart rate up, this is the one. There is humor and laughter. There are incredible moments of intimacy which lead to amazing bedroom scenes.We’d done things together I’d done with no one else. He’d touched parts of me no one else had touched. There were no surprises between us, yet the heat of our bodies felt new, unexplored, and full of promise.Oh my god, they are powerful and raw, and passionate. AJ knocked this out of the park. The originality and creativity along with the author’s sense of humor makes this one of the best books I have read. There are a couple of surprises that had me smiling from ear to ear. A day later, they still have me smiling.It’s impossible to comment about everything in this story without giving spoilers or making it 10 pages long that is worth mentioning. I can only encourage you to get your copy, if you haven’t already.You will laugh, you will cry, I had moments of bawling and I wasn’t sure which was running faster, my eyes or my nose. There is a lot of heartache and emotional distress but at its core this is a love story, a powerful love story that is beautiful. Amazing people…Amazing.* I received a copy of this book in exchange for an honest review through *

  • Unisauros
    2018-12-25 16:05

    You know the writing advise "If the backstory of your character is more interesting than the current story, you are writing the wrong story?" - that is how this story felt! It made sense at the end, but until then, it was irritating for me. At some point I felt a bit annoyed because the main character seemed like a poster boy for "therapy gone right", but that might be just my taste. I would have prefered him to have more edges.

  • Jenn
    2019-01-05 15:13

    Loved it!

  • Dana
    2019-01-13 21:11

    Reviewed for Rainbow Gold Reviews. A copy was provided in exchange for an honest review.I really like when an author can write many stories where the plots of each might be as different from each other as night and day. I like different emotional undertones, different types of characters, and different genres. It shows how diverse an author is to create such different stories. So, I have to say I’m a little embarrassed that it took me a little while to get into this story. The Power Exchange trilogy was a mystery series occurring in the BDSM community. In this book we are reading about a med student turned doctor, turned physical therapist and an artist. Both are heavy in emotion and drama, with things that might trigger readers who have experienced trauma in their pasts, but they are so different and I think I was expecting something more similar. After the first chapter, however, I had moved on from my expectations and fell in love with this new story.The book is all told from Dane’s point of view, and though I love books where both characters share equal space, the author did a great job of letting the reader feel what both Dane and Craig were feeling. The story alternates between the past and present as Dane tries to win Craig back, while showing how their relationship deteriorated, starting at present day. Each flashback was important to the story but I was wary each time, fearing the moment where things went wrong. That’s not to deter anyone from reading this book, because the reader has to know the why before wrongs can be made right.I loved the characters in this book. Dane and Craig met when Dane was a med student. When Dane started his residency at a teaching hospital, he could have turned more cocky, as some other young doctors were, but he remained likable. The time he spent away from Dylan did seem to effect the relationship a bit, but the two had been together for a few years already so they were weathering it. Dylan is sweet and easy-going as an artist who sees beauty in all things. Except for Sabrina, another young doctor who worked with Dane. I could understand his worries, based on his past with a “gay collector” but since she was a woman, at times I found his jealousy to be a little overboard. I felt that he should have left Dane to figure her out on his own. Dane’s best friend Holly plays a big part in the story, and she was awesome. She had been with him through from the beginning and encouraged him in his relationship with Craig.Ultimately there were a lot of things that blew up, and caused an end to their relationship. Dane’s silence about his past, his underlying PTSD, and his reservations of being out publicly with Craig hurt them badly. Dane had a hard time putting Craig through what he considered his baggage, and he seemed to really care about Craig’s happiness. A big lie was told and Craig who wanted to be with Dane through his ordeal, couldn’t overlook what happened. I think things were too stressful for them at that point to have made it through intact together. But in the present scenes, I could see how both characters had learned from what happened. It wasn’t an easy fix but they were both strong characters with good hearts, and neither had lost the love they felt for the other.The Anatomy of Perception is an emotional read. Not that I was crying through the whole book, but I could feel the heaviness of the subject matter. I feel like the author must have done a lot of research to write this story because the details of what it’s like for a doctor during their residency and the operations they might perform were very informative. Also the subject of mental health, PTSD, and rehabilitation felt realistic. I know I am lucky that I have no idea what it means to have PTSD, traumatic past events, or triggers. Because of that. I can’t know exactly how the characters of this book might have felt but I think the author did a great job of showing how mental illness affects the afflicted and the ones they care about. I’m just so glad that both characters found an inner strength and persevered their way to a happy ending.If you haven’t had the opportunity to read this author’s work, I highly recommend it. She has created another unique story in the m/m romance genre. I am so glad that I pushed through my early hesitation and finished the book. It was an amazing story.9/10 Pots of Gold (90% Recommended) – Compares to 4.5/5 Stars

  • Joyfully Jay
    2018-12-18 16:16

    A Joyfully Jay review. 3.75 starsThis book had me at the first chapter, which starts out in the present. It’s been two years since Dane had a psychotic break and it’s been two years since he has made contact with Craig. It was intriguing right up front to see how these guys were going to sort it all out. The story is told solely from Dane’s perspective. And, while many times I prefer a dual perspective, Dane’s sole perspective absolutely works for this story as it is primarily his story. Where this book excelled for me is the descriptive style used to get inside Dane’s head. He had been hiding from his abusive father for so long, and that permeated into every aspect of his life. There is a great sense of where Dane is now and how far he has come. We learn less about Craig as a person, but his commitment, dedication, and love for Dane is well drawn.The book shifts every chapter from the present to the past. At first this worked well for me. As the early part of the book went on however, we are basically told the overall story. So then, the flashbacks expand the story and fill in details. This did not always work for me. One reason was that I had already been told the story and then some of the flashbacks became rather lengthy and were filled with a lot of extraneous information. Sabrina, Dane’s colleague, is a huge portion of the story. So to see their connection we see them at work, which was vital to the plot. But at times, the book read like an episodic medical show. There would lengthy passages about a random hospital patient and their disease. On one hand we got well researched writing, but then on the other hand we got in depth detail of kidney disease, a torn ACL, and skin cancer for characters that did not advance the story line. Craig also teaches an art class for autistic children. We then get a description of the paintings of several of the children in the class. I would have much preferred to have seen more of Dane and Craig in their early days and falling in love. We see how they met and how Craig really went all out to get Dane’s attention, but then we don’t see them start to date or fall in love. For the most part, the flashbacks are at various points later in their relationship where things were fair or falling apart. This style really took away from seeing the intense connection that we are told the men had.Read Michelle's review in its entirety here.

  • Tj
    2018-12-17 21:10

    Croissants have buttery flaky layers. The Anatomy of Perception is more like the layers of an onion. To fully enjoy the aromatic flavors some tears have to be shed. The book centers around Dane and is told from his point of view with shifts from the past to the present. The shifts are done seamlessly and the reader never gets lost along the way. This method had to be employed for this book to work. Before Dane emotionally imploded, he kept his past carefully hidden even from the love of his life Craig. He had spent a lifetime hiding from his father, the fear of abuse and even from himself. Dane is more emotionally damaged than he can even admit to. He has only revealed small bits and pieces of himself to others. His journey back was handled the same way. The layers of Dane’s soul, all the hurt, fear and the reasons behind them are revealed to Craig and us the reader in increments – layer by layer.We learn of a tortured soul whose actions were forged by the hate and abuse inflicted by an abusive alcoholic father. We also see like a phoenix raising from the ashes, a man who faces his limitations and is finally able to deal with the PTSD and the anxiety attacks. Dane is ready to face Craig, ask for forgiveness and hope with all his heart for a second chance at love. Dane isn’t the only hero in this story and he could not have survived without their help. His brother Dylan is a fierce protector and is an example of what a man should be. Craig brings life and color into Dane’s world. He was ready to stand by Dane to the better end until Dane pushed him away. He slowly allows Dane back into his life. Last but not least is Holly. She is the friend we all wish we had.This book is much different from AJ’s previous novels. The Power Exchange series were police procedural and dealt with finding serial killers and rapists. This book is something more intimate. It deals with man facing his inner demons and then finding the strength to face outer ones.

  • Ambre
    2018-12-17 17:02

    Hurt comfort on steroids. The writing was not terrible, and the characters were basically likeable and relatable, but a lot of the details didn't ring true to me. Details of the medical situation (especially the thing about a doctor basically taking a step down to become a physical therapist, as though doctors learn all of the same things plus everything else. PT programs are almost as long as medical programs). The way the internship and residency were done didn't seem right either.PTSD in novels never rings quite true to me. The focus is always on the big, dramatic symptoms rather than the everyday symptoms. This one did a little better, but missed lots of stuff as well.Most of all, this just all sounded like the type of fantasy someone tells themselves after a breakup. It went way overboard in an effort to make the breakup entirely altruistic. There were a lot of other emotions that could have been involved, such as not wanting to be responsible, not feeling capable of caring, etc. Making it into a noble act really took away from the story for me, compared to an honest characterization someone who was unable to connect with people. It just sounded like a rationalization rather than a characterization.In the end, she put a lot of effort into making the scenario something the ex couldn't possibly NOT forgive. That took away a lot of the potential drama and conflict in the situation, and made it much less realistic in terms of how situations like that really unfold.

  • Sharon
    2019-01-14 17:16

    This is one of my favorite authors of all time. I read this book from start to finish without putting it down! It is more than refreshing to see serious reads about people who also just happen to be members of the multiple minorities that affect life. Linear style is difficult to do and keep the flow of the story and AJ Rose masters it. I prefer this form because flashbacks are distracting and leave you without enough information and going past to present often loses you. Linear style allows you to see where the main character has been and where he's going at the same time. PTSD is an all encompassing disease and Dane Perry's struggle puts it out there for people to see and understand that it's not just something "soldiers get from bombs". You find yourself holding your breathe a lot as you read this book and it just draws you in to the heart, soul and growth of Dane and Craig. All you have to do is remember to breathe.

  • Paula
    2018-12-19 22:11

    This is by one of my autobuy authors.This story is mainly from Dane's point of view in the present day and past which is split chapter by chapter. I preferred this method rather than constant flashbacks which are short and interrupt the flow of the story. I didn't feel this happened by doing it by chapter. Despite the alternating past / present the story was easy to follow and didn't feel mixed up at all.As always I finished the book too quickly! I fell in love with Craig and although I wanted everything to work out for Dane (who I cared about), it was important that it worked out of Craig.I know that I will reread this book in the coming months and I'm sure I will pick up on other aspects of their story which I may have missed as this happens with every AJ Rose book but that is the joy of the writing.I would highly recommend this although it isn't a light hearted read; it is however an excellent one.Get it and enjoy!

  • Tena
    2019-01-04 15:15

    AJ Rose has a way of pulling me into her stories so that I feel like I'm not only engaged but invested in what's happening. Dane's story is both heartbreaking and uplifting, as well as many other emotions in-between. I held my breath; I cried; I cheered. I simply couldn't believe so many things could happen to one person, and to the degree shown here. But when I stop to think about it, this is life - everyone's life in some fashion or other - and, in the end, there are many positive lessons to be learned from Dane's journey. I couldn't put it down, and I'll be thinking about it for a long time to come.

  • Heidi Dover
    2019-01-03 18:05

    Was okay. I liked the MCs and was interested and invested in their relationship and seeing how they fixed, grew, and settled, but this was really much too long with many unnecessary scenes, chapters, etc., etc. definitely felt it needed some pacing and tightening work. Also, not sure how realistic all the therapy, medical, etc stuff was, but it didn't seem realistic enough to keep me fully immersed in the story. Didn't make me believe, I guess, and that affected some of my attitude. But again, liked the charcters and their story was interesting enough to keep me reading and hoping and wanting to see their resolution.

  • Sarah
    2018-12-23 14:53

    DNF - the emotional pain was too intense for me, I've found that depression and anxiety means some books are now just too painful to read. And struggled to read about Sabrina - the manipulation was uncomfortable to read.Not a reflection on the author (which is why I haven't rated this), just outside my comfort zone.

  • Pates
    2019-01-09 19:56

    Aj's writing always makes me want to...fall in love with one, adooooore another, and just want to hug the shit out of the last. Oh and quite possibly want to hurt a character or two. I loved Craig something fierce and Dane is such a beautiful soul. What he conquered and the man he became was amazing. Definitely a good read. :)

  • andrea lewis
    2019-01-15 16:09

    This book made me cry and I loved itThanks AJ for your wonderful story!! Really drew me in, Its a keeper made me cry but in a good way! ....Just read it already..highly recommended.